Destiny Trick, Part II

When things not happen, nothing happens; when things happen, everything happens...

Tuesday, a day that I woke up late, wanted to take the leave but can't, dressed in a totally non-cheerful dull brown, no make up, no earring, looked pal, and suffered from the back pain and period uncomfortablility - a completely shity day.

Just on the same day evening, I met the guy again, in the family gathering dinner.

I wasn't aware that he will be there, if I knew, I will either go home changing the clothes or just staying at work not showing up.

I did wave hand to say hi to him, and smile, but I knew the smile was bit nervous, and with the mixed feeling. Just like when you meet your ex- by accident on the street, and you look damn worse. That's exactly how I felt on that night. Thought I did put some make-up before I left office, but the chemical stuff can't really cover the spiritual tireness.

My family encouraged me to go talking to him, but I didn't talk much, especially when there were so many family members around. I knew they like him, who won't, but I've lost the direction to go forward. They said he was standing around the corner looking, maybe it was just the imagination, maybe he was observing too.

That's the night I really wanted to drive the car, to be away, to disappear, among the crowd.