The weather is getting colder these days in Hong Kong, finally it feels more like a winter and also feels more like a real X'mas holiday is coming soon.
Been studying in Catholic school for 14 years, X'mas is always my favorite holiday, not because the gifts you can exchange with your classmates, but the warm, wishful, cheerful atmosphere among the whole the campus. We decorated the classroom, searched for different X'mas cards and send them to friends, we prepared and had the celebration ceremony together, we gave, and we shared. Even I can't recall exactly what we had done in old college times, those kind of the memories can't hardly be compared with other holidays.
I particular like the X'mas in a snowy place, thought a true X'mas should be like that. The past few years while I was in New Zealand, though it's fresh to see the Santa Claus in shirt and short, I still think wearing heavy coat and fury hat is the correct dress code. The X'mas I had in New York back in 1999 was the most closest one, with a bit more snow flakes will make that memory even perfect.
So wish that one day I can spend a special X'mas, with a person I cherish most and/or with a bunch of good old friends, gather around the fire place in a snowy city, and share the peacefulness and joyfulness belonging to this particular holiday season together.
Merry Christmas!
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Snowed by papers...
I was buried by all sorts of different papers since last week, the testing plans, the revised schedule, the PDS...., as well as a long list of follow-up tasks awaited in my computer.
Closer to the end of this year, while other colleagues are busy arranging to take leaves, I can only hope to launch all the new products soon before mid Dec and have a hassle/burden free X'mas holiday.
Feeling brain exhausted when those documents supposed to be completed by other team leaders and I shall only do the final checking tasks, but instead, I am the one who seem to drive and draft it. Yes it's a good training, but so what?
Still plan to move onto a more outbound role instead of always dealing with the internal users. They are all nice people, but if their thinking can be more rigid and comprehensive, it will be more efficient to expand to new areas of business. It's still a long way to go to train ourselves more competitive.
Closer to the end of this year, while other colleagues are busy arranging to take leaves, I can only hope to launch all the new products soon before mid Dec and have a hassle/burden free X'mas holiday.
Feeling brain exhausted when those documents supposed to be completed by other team leaders and I shall only do the final checking tasks, but instead, I am the one who seem to drive and draft it. Yes it's a good training, but so what?
Still plan to move onto a more outbound role instead of always dealing with the internal users. They are all nice people, but if their thinking can be more rigid and comprehensive, it will be more efficient to expand to new areas of business. It's still a long way to go to train ourselves more competitive.
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Living in Heaven
Up to today it has been a year after I was relocated to our Hong Kong office, a year and a day after I met the guy, and a year and few days more after I started living in Hong Kong.
Time flies, I haven't feel that I have done much great, or achieved anything meaningful, then it soon will be end of year 2007.
What I was doing back in 2006? Busyed preparing the trip to Europe, busyed handing over the work to team mates in AKL office, busyed organising the farewell party saying good-bye to friends, busyed arranging house matters before moving back to Asia, busyed trying to keep all the memories I had over there to pack with me.
Few years before, I was trying to be away from that country, few years later, I knew I had lived in a heaven. A heaven with crystal clear sky, deep blue ocean, fresh air, green, animals, and peace.
Guess people can only start appreciating the beauty of slowing down after speeding up, and the peace after the chaos.
Time flies, I haven't feel that I have done much great, or achieved anything meaningful, then it soon will be end of year 2007.
What I was doing back in 2006? Busyed preparing the trip to Europe, busyed handing over the work to team mates in AKL office, busyed organising the farewell party saying good-bye to friends, busyed arranging house matters before moving back to Asia, busyed trying to keep all the memories I had over there to pack with me.
Few years before, I was trying to be away from that country, few years later, I knew I had lived in a heaven. A heaven with crystal clear sky, deep blue ocean, fresh air, green, animals, and peace.
Guess people can only start appreciating the beauty of slowing down after speeding up, and the peace after the chaos.
Monday, November 12, 2007
New Style
Don't know where I got the courage to perm my hair, and to a medium curly level with my existing short hair (yes, not just the hair end when my hair was long). Though I received extreme comments from family and friends, I am still trying to get used to the new hair style.
In fact, my hair was not straight anymore after my auntie took me to the hair salon perming my hair when I was 10 and when the gene of natural curve uncovered. Since then, or maybe when I was more aware of the beauty of having straight hair in the colleague days, I had been trying to use all kind of different ways to make my hair straight. However, it never last long enough and straight enough.
Until the magic straightening invented.
I remembered the time when I walked out the hair salon, the hair was so straight, so shiny, and so light. I can finally shaked my head and let the hair flying in the wind. But, no pain no gain...the price to pay for the fake beauty is not only the dollar value, but also the long hours of processing, the damage of the chemical stuff to the hair, the frequency of the times I need to go back to the hair salon, and the intolerance when I see the new born hair grow curly.
I can't remember how many times I had done the magic straightening (more than 10 times possibly), regardless of the short or long hair. I still miss and like the straight hair, grass is always greener on the other side when it's impossible for me to have the natual straight hair.
But no matter how the technology involves, whenever the new hair grows, it's still curly, and I am really tired of sitting for hours waiting for my hair to become straight and it can only last for less then three months now.
That's how the curly style from. I am still not following my original style, but this time it's closer.
In fact, my hair was not straight anymore after my auntie took me to the hair salon perming my hair when I was 10 and when the gene of natural curve uncovered. Since then, or maybe when I was more aware of the beauty of having straight hair in the colleague days, I had been trying to use all kind of different ways to make my hair straight. However, it never last long enough and straight enough.
Until the magic straightening invented.
I remembered the time when I walked out the hair salon, the hair was so straight, so shiny, and so light. I can finally shaked my head and let the hair flying in the wind. But, no pain no gain...the price to pay for the fake beauty is not only the dollar value, but also the long hours of processing, the damage of the chemical stuff to the hair, the frequency of the times I need to go back to the hair salon, and the intolerance when I see the new born hair grow curly.
I can't remember how many times I had done the magic straightening (more than 10 times possibly), regardless of the short or long hair. I still miss and like the straight hair, grass is always greener on the other side when it's impossible for me to have the natual straight hair.
But no matter how the technology involves, whenever the new hair grows, it's still curly, and I am really tired of sitting for hours waiting for my hair to become straight and it can only last for less then three months now.
That's how the curly style from. I am still not following my original style, but this time it's closer.
Thursday, November 8, 2007
Destiny Trick, Part II
When things not happen, nothing happens; when things happen, everything happens...
Tuesday, a day that I woke up late, wanted to take the leave but can't, dressed in a totally non-cheerful dull brown, no make up, no earring, looked pal, and suffered from the back pain and period uncomfortablility - a completely shity day.
Just on the same day evening, I met the guy again, in the family gathering dinner.
I wasn't aware that he will be there, if I knew, I will either go home changing the clothes or just staying at work not showing up.
I did wave hand to say hi to him, and smile, but I knew the smile was bit nervous, and with the mixed feeling. Just like when you meet your ex- by accident on the street, and you look damn worse. That's exactly how I felt on that night. Thought I did put some make-up before I left office, but the chemical stuff can't really cover the spiritual tireness.
My family encouraged me to go talking to him, but I didn't talk much, especially when there were so many family members around. I knew they like him, who won't, but I've lost the direction to go forward. They said he was standing around the corner looking, maybe it was just the imagination, maybe he was observing too.
That's the night I really wanted to drive the car, to be away, to disappear, among the crowd.
Tuesday, a day that I woke up late, wanted to take the leave but can't, dressed in a totally non-cheerful dull brown, no make up, no earring, looked pal, and suffered from the back pain and period uncomfortablility - a completely shity day.
Just on the same day evening, I met the guy again, in the family gathering dinner.
I wasn't aware that he will be there, if I knew, I will either go home changing the clothes or just staying at work not showing up.
I did wave hand to say hi to him, and smile, but I knew the smile was bit nervous, and with the mixed feeling. Just like when you meet your ex- by accident on the street, and you look damn worse. That's exactly how I felt on that night. Thought I did put some make-up before I left office, but the chemical stuff can't really cover the spiritual tireness.
My family encouraged me to go talking to him, but I didn't talk much, especially when there were so many family members around. I knew they like him, who won't, but I've lost the direction to go forward. They said he was standing around the corner looking, maybe it was just the imagination, maybe he was observing too.
That's the night I really wanted to drive the car, to be away, to disappear, among the crowd.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Stopped Watch
Didn't have a very good sleep last night and when I waked up this morning, noticed that the time on the watch was 12 o'clock. OMG, how come I didn't hear the alarm sound?? Checked the mobile again and realised the time was only 7:30am in the morning. My watch stopped...
Surprisingly it stops just after 3 years of wearing...maybe it's also time to replace the battery, or, replace the old memory?
Coincidentally on the same night when the watch stopped, the person also appeared in my dream. Maybe it's a sign for something which means to happen - and if it does happen, I shall change my job to fortune teller!! However, most of the nights I don't really dream a lot, and whenever I have dreams, mostly are not sweet neither cheerful.
Anyhow, go home earlier to have a better sleep might be a better solution. I really need to have more rest to recover from the lack of sleep during the weekend.
Surprisingly it stops just after 3 years of wearing...maybe it's also time to replace the battery, or, replace the old memory?
Coincidentally on the same night when the watch stopped, the person also appeared in my dream. Maybe it's a sign for something which means to happen - and if it does happen, I shall change my job to fortune teller!! However, most of the nights I don't really dream a lot, and whenever I have dreams, mostly are not sweet neither cheerful.
Anyhow, go home earlier to have a better sleep might be a better solution. I really need to have more rest to recover from the lack of sleep during the weekend.
Monday, October 22, 2007
Another long weekend
Last weekend was a long weekend in Hong Kong, we got Friday, Saturday and Sunday off. Apart from successfully closing a deal last Friday with the future working partner, what left was non-stop eating with the family, meeting up with old colleague friend in Macau and the small luck I had in the casino, also some of the mixed feelings.
The itinerary for the weekend is pretty straightforward: -
Friday: Meeting-Lunch-Go home packing-Ferry to Macau-Dinner/Cruising around with the family - Catch up with old friend
Saturday: Venician (Macau) - XueHai (China)
Sunday: XueHai - Hot Spring Resort - Ferry to Hong Kong
Yes the Venician in Macau is huge, the economy in Hong Kong is prosperous, the development in China is growing at fast fast speed, everyone sees the opportunity and the wealth brought by the emerging China market, what about my home country Taiwan?
During the lunch time with the senior executives (COO, MD, AM and PM in charge of the Asia-Pacific region) from our partner, through the casual conversation they suddenly made a comment "Taiwan is entertaining", for its special Congress culture, for the way how people does business, for its distinguished Green/Blue phenomenon - I reacted quite, but honestly feel sad. All these years being abroad, I have tried my best to correct the stereotypes from these Western people who might not understand thoroughly about the relationship between Taiwan and China, but when people are more impressed with Taiwan for its political statement than its business competitiveness, how do we move our economy forward?
I knew I should just have enjoyed the holiday without thinking this type of the issue, but I do wish one day, and in the very near coming future, the comments I hear from people from Taiwan, or outside Taiwan, are positive and promising.
Monday, October 15, 2007
Blogaholic
There are alcoholic, shopaholic, workaholic etc, and I thinking I am getting to become a "blogaholic". In fact, this is not a new word, just when I suddenly think of the combination of "blog" and "-aholic", there are already a lot of entries you could find on the Google regarding the term blogaholic.
I must confess that I am not very productive recently due to the addiction of reading one blog to another when the work on hand is not that urgent to be completed. I shouldn't have done so but it almost becomes a daily routine to check the often-read blogs and find out what the updates are. Luckily the list is not that long due to my short blogging history, otherwise I am worried that I might lost my job because I spend too much time on other people's blogs.
Lately I had gone through quite a few of the traveling blogs and felt fortunate that I've done something similar, although just a very small degree compared to the rest, to not to feel too regretful about life. I've been thinking, if I use my working holiday visa to find the work in UK, if I keep staying in Europe, what will be like now? I still have 7 months before the visa expires, should I do it again?
My dream is to work in as many countries as I could, before I have the family to settle down, to get to know the local, interact without worrying the time and money. Maybe I have been on my own for a while and want to try the experience of traveling with an intimate partner and see what it likes. Maybe till then, I will just do short trips and leave the longer "around the world" type during the gap year.
Other than traveling, it's also interesting to know what other people are thinking, how do they live the life, how do they see the world around them. Thanks for all those bloggers' kind sharing so we could see a different world through other people's eyes. I haven't yet got the thought to publish my blog link openly as I still want to keep some privacy only to close friends; however, no doubtfully by blogging it helps me to keep track what I have walked through along the journey (yes I am too lazy to write on the diary...) and one day when I look back, it will be a real memory - a history of my own.
Half-day Cruise Trip
Thanks to an old NZ colleague who visited Hong Kong during the weekend with her family, I was very lucky to enjoy the cruise trip with them and their friends on a private yacht to Lamma Island (南ㄚ島) yesterday. I did have some chances to go out fishing on our boss' yacht back in NZ, while it was the first time in HK since my relocation. The cruise trip still have a lot of charm to me, certainly!
We left the pier in Causeway Bay around 1pm and started our journey. The weather was quite modest, a little bit more sunshine will be even perfect, for a day sailing like this. Only pity was that due to the weather (or possibly pollution?), it's quite smoky to see the city from the sea. Fortunately on the way back in the night time, we did see the spectacular scenery.
We weren't able to finish walking to the other side of the island to see the beautiful beach as the little kids couldn't really go further, while it's already very good to breath the fresh air and see less people compared to the main land.
On the way back to TST port after we finished the seafood dinner, we were siting on the upper part of the yacht, joking, laughing, enjoying the music and the great night out. No over-drinking, but just a nice weekend and a good relax.
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Autumn
It feels like the autumn is really here now, though sometimes the heat during the weekend when I am not working in the freezer-like office is still quite killing.
It's a good time to come visiting Hong Kong, or in other words, a good time to visit most of the places around the world, when you can feel the breeze, enjoy the warmth of the sun without getting too much sunburn, and not worrying putting on/taking off heavy winter coat when walking in and out of the buildings.
Work is not that busy these days, most of the projects are quite on the track, and I only need to do some polish works which are not that time-demanding. As a result, I have more spare time for myself, to be able to go home earlier than usual, to read some books, and to have spare mind wondering around - thinking some travelling plan, study plan, investment/saving plan etc.
Traveling: Choosing in between Egypt or Eastern Europe, approx. travel time between late Oct to Nov for around 10 days. Main purpose is to bring mum and dad to go somewhere further than Asia/Australasia. Time to do something for them instead of always enjoying the fun of traveling on my own :)
Studying: Glad that I finally have the thought to go back to school studying some serious majors (not like language, sports, personal leisure those type of soft topics), but instead of aiming for the whole degree, I will be more likely focussing on some areas like strategy management, financial reporting, venture management which can equip me with more managerial skills to go next level. Still try to search approproate schools considering the transportation time between office and the classroom.
Investment/Saving: Friends might think that I've made a fortune from the bullish HK stock market. Unfortunetaly I didn't cos everytime when I was away from HK, it just went higher for another 1,000 points and right now it's just too risky for me to blindly follow the trend. I was thinking the other day, if I can save a million TWD a year (which is really forcing me not to spend unwisely and more important, aiming for higher income!), I might be able to reach my retire dream more earlier. Reality is, I might not be able to save that more and earn that more, so learning how to be a smart investor is an important goal for me now. Hope it's not too late...
I guess looking for a boyfriend should also be on the list (and according to my colleague, should be on the top priority of the list), but maybe I am out of the game too long and don't know how to plan with. Maybe alongside those above-mentioned plans, I should also add "going to the gym" so that I could enhance my own health and also get to know more people.
It's a good time to come visiting Hong Kong, or in other words, a good time to visit most of the places around the world, when you can feel the breeze, enjoy the warmth of the sun without getting too much sunburn, and not worrying putting on/taking off heavy winter coat when walking in and out of the buildings.
Work is not that busy these days, most of the projects are quite on the track, and I only need to do some polish works which are not that time-demanding. As a result, I have more spare time for myself, to be able to go home earlier than usual, to read some books, and to have spare mind wondering around - thinking some travelling plan, study plan, investment/saving plan etc.
Traveling: Choosing in between Egypt or Eastern Europe, approx. travel time between late Oct to Nov for around 10 days. Main purpose is to bring mum and dad to go somewhere further than Asia/Australasia. Time to do something for them instead of always enjoying the fun of traveling on my own :)
Studying: Glad that I finally have the thought to go back to school studying some serious majors (not like language, sports, personal leisure those type of soft topics), but instead of aiming for the whole degree, I will be more likely focussing on some areas like strategy management, financial reporting, venture management which can equip me with more managerial skills to go next level. Still try to search approproate schools considering the transportation time between office and the classroom.
Investment/Saving: Friends might think that I've made a fortune from the bullish HK stock market. Unfortunetaly I didn't cos everytime when I was away from HK, it just went higher for another 1,000 points and right now it's just too risky for me to blindly follow the trend. I was thinking the other day, if I can save a million TWD a year (which is really forcing me not to spend unwisely and more important, aiming for higher income!), I might be able to reach my retire dream more earlier. Reality is, I might not be able to save that more and earn that more, so learning how to be a smart investor is an important goal for me now. Hope it's not too late...
I guess looking for a boyfriend should also be on the list (and according to my colleague, should be on the top priority of the list), but maybe I am out of the game too long and don't know how to plan with. Maybe alongside those above-mentioned plans, I should also add "going to the gym" so that I could enhance my own health and also get to know more people.
Monday, October 8, 2007
Lust, Caution
Watched the movie last Sat just before the mid night. Honestly speaking, I prefer more for other movies Ang Lee had directed over the past, particularly very early ones before he became someone in Hollywood. Unfortunately I can't type Chinese easily at the moment otherwise will be easier to put down what I want to say more accurately.
The original story is relatively a short one from the novel, and if the audiences are driven to the theatre because of the bedroom calisthenics by the famous Hong Kong actor, I'd rather say to watch some other typical Hollywood movies (e.g. the basic instinct).
Shallow as me, don't have much to comment apart from treating it just as a movie. However, somehow I recalled a phase stated by a male friend few years ago - sexual relationship without love is having sex, and with love is making love. So in this movie, which applies, or it's a mixture of both?
I tend to think most of the males can be relatively easier to differentiate what is having sex and what is making love, but to the other end, are we really able to draw a clear line in between without confusing ourselves what is the original purpose? Can we stay from risking it while being addictive? It's a sword that has two sides.
The original story is relatively a short one from the novel, and if the audiences are driven to the theatre because of the bedroom calisthenics by the famous Hong Kong actor, I'd rather say to watch some other typical Hollywood movies (e.g. the basic instinct).
Shallow as me, don't have much to comment apart from treating it just as a movie. However, somehow I recalled a phase stated by a male friend few years ago - sexual relationship without love is having sex, and with love is making love. So in this movie, which applies, or it's a mixture of both?
I tend to think most of the males can be relatively easier to differentiate what is having sex and what is making love, but to the other end, are we really able to draw a clear line in between without confusing ourselves what is the original purpose? Can we stay from risking it while being addictive? It's a sword that has two sides.
Friday, October 5, 2007
Friday Night
Was mean to leave work before 6:30pm; however just when I passed the phone number of someone whom our Marketing head was looking for before I was on the way out of the office, I was asked to do them a favor - drafting some formal emails which are less serious than legal letters but have some sorts of the warning effects. Another typical Friday night....
We are still waiting for the instructions from our MD how to handle this matter, while in the meantime I got nothing to do except surfing on the Internt and writing blog. One of the collagues is on the night shift and is playing some musics from his PC -some musics from 70s/80s or from some movies I familar with. Somehow, a feeling like I was in Auckland walking along the beach in the summer time or sitting on the coach at home watching favorite DVDs.
A freedom of mind and body.
Recently I am thinking, if the Compay does decide to open the branch in UK, I should be up and fight for the opportunity. I know I have been struggling of working in Europe due to the far distance away from home, while if I can't find the companion in Asia, why don't I let go of the career development when I have no burden to do so? Another difficult choice of life.
However till the time it becomes the reality, just stay simple, stay focussed, and enjoy the most out of my present life.
We are still waiting for the instructions from our MD how to handle this matter, while in the meantime I got nothing to do except surfing on the Internt and writing blog. One of the collagues is on the night shift and is playing some musics from his PC -some musics from 70s/80s or from some movies I familar with. Somehow, a feeling like I was in Auckland walking along the beach in the summer time or sitting on the coach at home watching favorite DVDs.
A freedom of mind and body.
Recently I am thinking, if the Compay does decide to open the branch in UK, I should be up and fight for the opportunity. I know I have been struggling of working in Europe due to the far distance away from home, while if I can't find the companion in Asia, why don't I let go of the career development when I have no burden to do so? Another difficult choice of life.
However till the time it becomes the reality, just stay simple, stay focussed, and enjoy the most out of my present life.
Thursday, October 4, 2007
Going Home
Work computer corrupted on the night of mid autumn festival and IT replaced a temporary one for me last Friday before I have my own new one - finally after so many years a laptop with Chinese keyboard. However till then, I could only type in English as I can't put any Zhuyig sticker on the temporary computer.
After attending friend's wedding on Sat, took the morning flight back to Taipei on Sunday and stayed until last night. Friends in HK asked me why I need to go back for such a short period of time and spend extra money and annual leaves for a trip not going to a new place. Well, I did think about this several times before my departure but all the doubtful thoughts were gone after arriving the Taoyuang airport. It's home, the family members, friends - the feeling of surrounding makes me going back despite the extra costs.
It's funny that since I started working in Hong Kong from last Nov, I've gone back to Taiwan for Christmas, Chinese New Year, Easter, Mother's Day and post mid-autumn festival. The frequency is higher but each time the stay is shorter - I did have more time spending with families but relatively shorter time with friends due to the short stay. Not meaning that friends are not important to me anymore, just most of friends in Taiwan have got their own family to look after where my free time might not be the free time for them. Moreover, chances are I might be far away from home again if any opportunities arise, and while I am still not far away from home, it's better to be a good daughter than a good employee.
The exciting side of this few day trip going home is eating the very very local food and buying not expensive but stylish accessories - 3 shoes, 5 earrings and 2 necklaces!! Get my hair cut and teeth fixed, and bring another batch of old winter clothes from Taipei so I can spend less time shopping in HK. Most important, I didn't get any stomach pain like previous trips and can fully enjoy the trip :)
After attending friend's wedding on Sat, took the morning flight back to Taipei on Sunday and stayed until last night. Friends in HK asked me why I need to go back for such a short period of time and spend extra money and annual leaves for a trip not going to a new place. Well, I did think about this several times before my departure but all the doubtful thoughts were gone after arriving the Taoyuang airport. It's home, the family members, friends - the feeling of surrounding makes me going back despite the extra costs.
It's funny that since I started working in Hong Kong from last Nov, I've gone back to Taiwan for Christmas, Chinese New Year, Easter, Mother's Day and post mid-autumn festival. The frequency is higher but each time the stay is shorter - I did have more time spending with families but relatively shorter time with friends due to the short stay. Not meaning that friends are not important to me anymore, just most of friends in Taiwan have got their own family to look after where my free time might not be the free time for them. Moreover, chances are I might be far away from home again if any opportunities arise, and while I am still not far away from home, it's better to be a good daughter than a good employee.
The exciting side of this few day trip going home is eating the very very local food and buying not expensive but stylish accessories - 3 shoes, 5 earrings and 2 necklaces!! Get my hair cut and teeth fixed, and bring another batch of old winter clothes from Taipei so I can spend less time shopping in HK. Most important, I didn't get any stomach pain like previous trips and can fully enjoy the trip :)
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
一個人的中秋
雖然好不容易拿到了今晚 7:30 回台北的位子, 還是在最後一刻決定星期日時再回去. 一方面是回到家的時間已晚, 大家可能都烤完肉要回各自回家準備隔天的上班上課, 二方面弟弟要到週五的半夜才到台北, 我要是周六下午趕回香港參加婚禮, 可能連一起吃飯的時間都沒有.
所以, 今天晚上, 是一個人過中秋.
以前在國外時不會有太多特別的感覺, 端午, 中秋, 過年, 元宵, 國外都沒有放假, 沒人特別提, 也就不會特別去注意. 到了香港, 亞洲人的地方, 當公司提早放工讓大家回家和家人過節, 一個人不知要到何處的情景頓時有些許感傷.
哎, 又能如何呢? 小叮噹的任意門此時也沒有路用了…
所以, 今天晚上, 是一個人過中秋.
以前在國外時不會有太多特別的感覺, 端午, 中秋, 過年, 元宵, 國外都沒有放假, 沒人特別提, 也就不會特別去注意. 到了香港, 亞洲人的地方, 當公司提早放工讓大家回家和家人過節, 一個人不知要到何處的情景頓時有些許感傷.
哎, 又能如何呢? 小叮噹的任意門此時也沒有路用了…
Monday, September 17, 2007
魔法皮箱
才正想周末時把上次去 Melbourne 的皮箱 unpack, 沒想到老闆一通電話來, 週一晚上飛Ａuckland 參加週三的一個策略合作會議. 明天早上大概也不可能有機會回家睡覺了, 大概是直奔辦公室, 把會議需要討論的項目逐項 go through. 不過應該是可以按時下班, 因為要撘同事的便車回家 :)
上次去Melbourne 也是一樣很戲劇化, 也是週末要把皮箱 unpack （不過還來不及..), 週一收到通知, 週二晚上就起飛, 週三開會. 怎麼我每次要收拾, 就會有這樣臨時的通知? 我的皮箱現在像是小叮噹的任意門了嗎？
好處是在於我可以連皮箱都不用換, 衣服也不用拿出來, 把貼身衣物, 圍巾, 盥洗包, 化妝包, 電器包, 藥包等放進皮箱, 1 個小時之內完成打包. 不過才待3天, 又要把車子的相關證件弄好才不會在路上被警察開單, 準備的工作跟待3個禮拜也差不了太多.
要不是因為週六晚上有同事的婚宴要參加, 我還真希望可以待的稍微久一點, 一個週末都好. 雖然離上次回去只有一個多月的時間, 還是很想念那的碧海和藍天...
上次去Melbourne 也是一樣很戲劇化, 也是週末要把皮箱 unpack （不過還來不及..), 週一收到通知, 週二晚上就起飛, 週三開會. 怎麼我每次要收拾, 就會有這樣臨時的通知? 我的皮箱現在像是小叮噹的任意門了嗎？
好處是在於我可以連皮箱都不用換, 衣服也不用拿出來, 把貼身衣物, 圍巾, 盥洗包, 化妝包, 電器包, 藥包等放進皮箱, 1 個小時之內完成打包. 不過才待3天, 又要把車子的相關證件弄好才不會在路上被警察開單, 準備的工作跟待3個禮拜也差不了太多.
要不是因為週六晚上有同事的婚宴要參加, 我還真希望可以待的稍微久一點, 一個週末都好. 雖然離上次回去只有一個多月的時間, 還是很想念那的碧海和藍天...
Friday, September 14, 2007
流水帳
星期一到星期三中午: 星期一開 strategy meeting, 星期二/三開 treasury system meeting, 雖然都有很好吃的免費中餐, 不過一大堆該辦的正事做不完, 再好吃的中餐也比不上晚上9:30 時悠哉的在家看港劇.
星期三下午到星期四午時: 疑似又得腸胃炎, 星期三上午開會時已經是硬撐了, 吃完中飯後跟同事講話已經很難把整個句子一次講完, 告假回家後像睡X人一樣昏睡不醒. 整整給它睡足了12 個小時才有一些些多餘的力氣回公司上班.
星期四下午: 地球沒有因為我生病而停止運轉, 公司也沒有同事罷工, 事情還是一樣多, 一樣要做完. 會計部門的一位女同事突然在辦公室哭了起來, 聽說是被她的上司"苦渡". 不知實情為何, 也不敢太八卦, 只是想起我唯一因為因公掉淚的時候是被奧克蘭市長掛電話, 說我一個小助理沒權告訴他要怎麼做事. 當時沮喪的在廁所裡哭了起來, 氣自己的英文不好, 小事變成大事. 事隔多年, 這段往事已是人生插曲一段, 那個沒品的市長也沒繼續連任 (看來奧克蘭的市民跟我有同樣的想法!)
星期五: TGIF! 不過沒到正式離開辦公桌前, 一切都不算結束. 希望testing 沒有問題, 希望能早點回家好好休息, 希望明天的天氣好可以和友人享受下午茶, 希望我不會因為中午吃了咖哩後腸胃炎再犯!
星期三下午到星期四午時: 疑似又得腸胃炎, 星期三上午開會時已經是硬撐了, 吃完中飯後跟同事講話已經很難把整個句子一次講完, 告假回家後像睡X人一樣昏睡不醒. 整整給它睡足了12 個小時才有一些些多餘的力氣回公司上班.
星期四下午: 地球沒有因為我生病而停止運轉, 公司也沒有同事罷工, 事情還是一樣多, 一樣要做完. 會計部門的一位女同事突然在辦公室哭了起來, 聽說是被她的上司"苦渡". 不知實情為何, 也不敢太八卦, 只是想起我唯一因為因公掉淚的時候是被奧克蘭市長掛電話, 說我一個小助理沒權告訴他要怎麼做事. 當時沮喪的在廁所裡哭了起來, 氣自己的英文不好, 小事變成大事. 事隔多年, 這段往事已是人生插曲一段, 那個沒品的市長也沒繼續連任 (看來奧克蘭的市民跟我有同樣的想法!)
星期五: TGIF! 不過沒到正式離開辦公桌前, 一切都不算結束. 希望testing 沒有問題, 希望能早點回家好好休息, 希望明天的天氣好可以和友人享受下午茶, 希望我不會因為中午吃了咖哩後腸胃炎再犯!
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
粉紅
今天沒有下雨, 穿上了我的麻紗白長褲, 淡粉紅的針織外套和背心, 配上了一條略深的粉紅絲巾, 還有淡淡的粉紅眼影. 哈, 還真是一片粉紅啊.
年輕的時候, 對於一些粉嫩的色彩很是 confused, 總覺得穿起來有些扭捏, 好像跟個性不怎麼合. 至今我的衣櫃裡中性的顏色還是居多, 不過對於其他的顏色比較能接受了, 也開始會 enjoy 偶爾眼睛一亮的新鮮感. 人生, 總不能老是黑白的. 今年尤其是極至, 猛下心買了一堆橘的, 桃紅的, 紅的衣服. 大概也是因為在香港的關係, 顏色的選擇比較多, 一開始會有眼花撩亂的感覺, 久了也就適應了. 不過那種很奇怪的螢光色系就是例外了, 我不會把自己搞的像霓虹燈一樣.
灑上了我在新加坡時買的 212 香水, 帶上了我在雪梨買的瓷花耳環. 我很喜歡今天的穿著, 試著在忙碌的中環, 一片”專業”色彩中, 放下武裝, 停緩腳步, 工作之餘, 看看窗外的初秋陽光, 享受今天的粉紅.
年輕的時候, 對於一些粉嫩的色彩很是 confused, 總覺得穿起來有些扭捏, 好像跟個性不怎麼合. 至今我的衣櫃裡中性的顏色還是居多, 不過對於其他的顏色比較能接受了, 也開始會 enjoy 偶爾眼睛一亮的新鮮感. 人生, 總不能老是黑白的. 今年尤其是極至, 猛下心買了一堆橘的, 桃紅的, 紅的衣服. 大概也是因為在香港的關係, 顏色的選擇比較多, 一開始會有眼花撩亂的感覺, 久了也就適應了. 不過那種很奇怪的螢光色系就是例外了, 我不會把自己搞的像霓虹燈一樣.
灑上了我在新加坡時買的 212 香水, 帶上了我在雪梨買的瓷花耳環. 我很喜歡今天的穿著, 試著在忙碌的中環, 一片”專業”色彩中, 放下武裝, 停緩腳步, 工作之餘, 看看窗外的初秋陽光, 享受今天的粉紅.
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
回來了
離開 Melbourne 的當天, 朋友帶我到 South Bank 的 Nandos 吃了一個 quick lunch. 天氣出奇的好, 透藍的天, 清澈的河流, 不遠的 corner 有著街頭藝人在表演, 有輕鬆的 Jazz music, 有開心的人群, 我的臉上也有著滿意的笑容, 和一些些的不捨. 去年 7 月離開 New Zealand 後, 很幸運的我每幾個月 (Nov, Feb, July, Aug) 就可以因為出差的關係再回到紐澳, 享受脫離人潮的悠閒與自在. 開玩笑的跟朋友說, 每一次的旅行, 都讓我可以在香港多待一些. 如果要讓我持續性的待在這個地方, 我可能真的會發瘋. 事實上, 我是已經快瘋了…
清楚的明瞭當初到香港的原因, 也知道魚與熊掌不可兼得的道理. 我試著在找尋繼續留在香港的”誘因”, 不過總覺得我是在強迫自己做些什麼. 想回台灣, 又怕工資太低; 想到歐洲, 只是又覺得好不容易可以離家近一些, 又要再搬到地球的另一個角落. 沒退休的打算前應該還不會回Auckland, 難不成真的搬到 Sydney or Melbourne? 想到我要再打包的行李就覺得頭痛, 哪來這麼多的衣服鞋子和零零碎碎的東西?
天地之大, 何處是我家? 你問我, 我也不知道了…
清楚的明瞭當初到香港的原因, 也知道魚與熊掌不可兼得的道理. 我試著在找尋繼續留在香港的”誘因”, 不過總覺得我是在強迫自己做些什麼. 想回台灣, 又怕工資太低; 想到歐洲, 只是又覺得好不容易可以離家近一些, 又要再搬到地球的另一個角落. 沒退休的打算前應該還不會回Auckland, 難不成真的搬到 Sydney or Melbourne? 想到我要再打包的行李就覺得頭痛, 哪來這麼多的衣服鞋子和零零碎碎的東西?
天地之大, 何處是我家? 你問我, 我也不知道了…
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Trip to Melbourne - 2
Finished the meeting yesterday afternoon and had an early sleep last night to recover the lost energy. For having less than 4 hours sleep on the plane the night before, I honestly think my performance was better than expected - at least I still kept my eyes open and stayed awake answering questions during the meeting :)
Weather in Melbourne is lovely, sunny and not windy. Our office here has a very impressive lobby with grand space, huge palace-style columns, indoor ponds, several artistic sculptures and large paintings, as well as magnificent view to see the whole Melbourne city from the top. I can even see the sea from our office, reminding me our Toronto office where I can also see the Ontario Lake. It’s a green city surrounded by several parks and a beautiful river flows across the heart of the city.
Few of my friends who are originally from Auckland and now working in Melbourne also highly encourage me to come here. Even the taxi driver did the same persuasion thing. Maybe I shall give it a thought too apart from working in Sydney if one day I am tired of the life in Asia and not yet want to go back working in NZ.
Weather in Melbourne is lovely, sunny and not windy. Our office here has a very impressive lobby with grand space, huge palace-style columns, indoor ponds, several artistic sculptures and large paintings, as well as magnificent view to see the whole Melbourne city from the top. I can even see the sea from our office, reminding me our Toronto office where I can also see the Ontario Lake. It’s a green city surrounded by several parks and a beautiful river flows across the heart of the city.
Few of my friends who are originally from Auckland and now working in Melbourne also highly encourage me to come here. Even the taxi driver did the same persuasion thing. Maybe I shall give it a thought too apart from working in Sydney if one day I am tired of the life in Asia and not yet want to go back working in NZ.
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Trip to Melbourne
It seems like I've just returned from a short vacation in Melbourne and not long after I will be back again for a short business trip.
Finally an official execuse to visit the local branch as I've stopped over in Melbourne twice but have never been there for work.
A very short meeting notice from my boss yesterday to attend a meeting on Thursday (and realise today that the meeting is TOMORROW afternoon....damn, I will definitely look pal after the overnight flight...). Luckily the luggage from last NZ trip has not yet been completely unpacked so I just need to move clothese from one larger luggage to a smaller one.
Bad thing is that I need to read throught all the documents on the plane and right after the early morning arrival, need to check in, get rest, get refreshed, and report to the office as per normal office hours. Keep figure cross that I will stay awake (and have my brain work) in the afternoon meeting.
Finally an official execuse to visit the local branch as I've stopped over in Melbourne twice but have never been there for work.
A very short meeting notice from my boss yesterday to attend a meeting on Thursday (and realise today that the meeting is TOMORROW afternoon....damn, I will definitely look pal after the overnight flight...). Luckily the luggage from last NZ trip has not yet been completely unpacked so I just need to move clothese from one larger luggage to a smaller one.
Bad thing is that I need to read throught all the documents on the plane and right after the early morning arrival, need to check in, get rest, get refreshed, and report to the office as per normal office hours. Keep figure cross that I will stay awake (and have my brain work) in the afternoon meeting.
Monday, August 27, 2007
Not a blue Monday
This morning had a meeting with department heads from Hong Kong, Auckland and Melbourne offices to go throught some of the preparation works for the new product. Initially I was thinking the meeting might be lengthy and wasn't expecting any significant results would be produced as half of the team members are not really experienced in the new area where the new product is going to be focussed on. However, it turned out the meeting was pretty good, finished within an hour and all the items listed on the agenda had been discussed and identified with ways to solve. Pretty amazing, I shall say, in particular in the typical blue Monday morning.
It seems like this Monday is not that blue, and in fact, quite inspiring.
It seems like this Monday is not that blue, and in fact, quite inspiring.
Friday, August 24, 2007
神童
剛看到今天香港Yahoo新聞的頭條, 講到香港史上最年輕的大學生 - 九歲讀大學的小神童.
http://hk.news.yahoo.com/fc/news_fc_hkIQchild.html
我不是神童, 周圍也沒有這等天資優異的朋友, 不能了解九歲被大學入取的感受 (我是19歲才進大學的普通人...). 不過10幾歲就念完學, 碩士, 可能不到20歲就念完博士, 知識是一定得到了, 不過卻覺得人生好像一下被壓縮了1/3, 好玩的事也一下少了1/3, 有些可惜.
雖然我的求學路程一路還算順遂, 不過我一直是覺得"會讀書"就像是"會打字""會唱歌"的一項技能而已, 會讀書不代表會賺錢, 或會成功, 也許或然率較高, 但不是一定成正比. 人生有很多事是學校沒有教, 也教不會的 - 你要親身去體驗, 去走, 也許會迷路, 也許會摔跤, 也許會不預期的找到桃花源, 有很多也許, 而這些"也許"是機器無法算出來的.
有時看到台灣的表弟妹們每天無日無夜的補習, 覺得很是可憐, 活到老學到老, 何必一定要在年紀輕輕把所有的學習的樂趣都壓榨乾了? (除非他們很喜歡補習, 不過我是不這樣覺得) 我現在回想起以前讀書的日子, 有的記憶是朋友, 是社團生活, 是住校時發生的糗/鮮事, 是年少時純純的愛戀, 是師長們對我的提攜及關心, 是很多很多伴隨著讀書而來的樂趣. 唯一辛苦的日子大概是考大學前失眠的那半年, 其他時候都是很開心的.
如果你問我後悔什麼? 我會說男朋友交的不夠多, 沒有早點去OE, 而不是覺得書唸的不夠, 學位唸的不夠高 (頂多是偶爾靠夭一下沒選對路, 或應該念更好的名校).
"萬般皆下品, 唯有讀書高", 如果修水電舖地磚裝管線的比碩士畢業生還更有錢有閒更快樂更沒有失業的問題, 教導孩子如何學習對自己的行為決定負責, 尊敬自己與他人, 有一技之長, 活的快樂, 會比只是強調唸書來的更有實質上的意義.
http://hk.news.yahoo.com/fc/news_fc_hkIQchild.html
我不是神童, 周圍也沒有這等天資優異的朋友, 不能了解九歲被大學入取的感受 (我是19歲才進大學的普通人...). 不過10幾歲就念完學, 碩士, 可能不到20歲就念完博士, 知識是一定得到了, 不過卻覺得人生好像一下被壓縮了1/3, 好玩的事也一下少了1/3, 有些可惜.
雖然我的求學路程一路還算順遂, 不過我一直是覺得"會讀書"就像是"會打字""會唱歌"的一項技能而已, 會讀書不代表會賺錢, 或會成功, 也許或然率較高, 但不是一定成正比. 人生有很多事是學校沒有教, 也教不會的 - 你要親身去體驗, 去走, 也許會迷路, 也許會摔跤, 也許會不預期的找到桃花源, 有很多也許, 而這些"也許"是機器無法算出來的.
有時看到台灣的表弟妹們每天無日無夜的補習, 覺得很是可憐, 活到老學到老, 何必一定要在年紀輕輕把所有的學習的樂趣都壓榨乾了? (除非他們很喜歡補習, 不過我是不這樣覺得) 我現在回想起以前讀書的日子, 有的記憶是朋友, 是社團生活, 是住校時發生的糗/鮮事, 是年少時純純的愛戀, 是師長們對我的提攜及關心, 是很多很多伴隨著讀書而來的樂趣. 唯一辛苦的日子大概是考大學前失眠的那半年, 其他時候都是很開心的.
如果你問我後悔什麼? 我會說男朋友交的不夠多, 沒有早點去OE, 而不是覺得書唸的不夠, 學位唸的不夠高 (頂多是偶爾靠夭一下沒選對路, 或應該念更好的名校).
"萬般皆下品, 唯有讀書高", 如果修水電舖地磚裝管線的比碩士畢業生還更有錢有閒更快樂更沒有失業的問題, 教導孩子如何學習對自己的行為決定負責, 尊敬自己與他人, 有一技之長, 活的快樂, 會比只是強調唸書來的更有實質上的意義.
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
寂寞
在紐的最後一晚, 跟一位相識已久的友人吃飯.
談話間友人問到, 是否有了比較親近的Lover? 我誠實以答: 沒有.
友人又問: 一個人不寂寞嗎?
我答: 已經過了那個階段了.
去年在巴黎旅遊時巧遇已3 年不見的朋友, 朋友也是問到同樣的問題: 一個人旅遊, 不會感到孤單寂寞嗎? 我笑笑答: 每天忙著安排下一站的行程, 找交通工具找地方住找東西吃, 一天下來除了想休息之外, 腦袋根本不會有空間想別的事. 想找人分享, 身邊沒人, 於是乎寫旅行札記, 寫 e-mail, 把看到的想說的化為文字, 透過網路傳給在地球不同角落的朋友們.
說不寂寞, 倒不如說是要學會適應如何面對寂寞. 一個人, 兩個人或一群人, 日子還是要過. 與其悲觀的否定事實, 倒不如學習接受, 旣而設法改變.
我得承認, 一個人在外住久了, 說好聽是獨立, 說白一點是會變的有些孤僻. 我可以跟一大群朋友吃飯喝酒聊天唱歌跳舞直到深夜, 也可以自己一個人吃飯看電影逛街上課做運動. 一群人有一群人的熱鬧, 一個人也有一個人的寧靜.
如果我找伴侶的動機只是為了寂寞的話, 事情會簡單的多.
只是, 要找到能了解自己在講什麼想什麼而不把我當成異類怪女人, 能跟我一起分享學習生命中的美好事物而不以高姿態評判 “你什麼都會了男朋友還能做什麼” 的人並不容易. 在多數的情況下, 我選擇了隱藏, 學會了沉默與傾聽, 學會了輕拍跌倒之後的衣袖與塵灰, 再站起來繼續前行.
如果這樣是長大成熟, 也許我寧願回到10 年前那個看到像陽光般燦爛的笑容時會融化的自己.
談話間友人問到, 是否有了比較親近的Lover? 我誠實以答: 沒有.
友人又問: 一個人不寂寞嗎?
我答: 已經過了那個階段了.
去年在巴黎旅遊時巧遇已3 年不見的朋友, 朋友也是問到同樣的問題: 一個人旅遊, 不會感到孤單寂寞嗎? 我笑笑答: 每天忙著安排下一站的行程, 找交通工具找地方住找東西吃, 一天下來除了想休息之外, 腦袋根本不會有空間想別的事. 想找人分享, 身邊沒人, 於是乎寫旅行札記, 寫 e-mail, 把看到的想說的化為文字, 透過網路傳給在地球不同角落的朋友們.
說不寂寞, 倒不如說是要學會適應如何面對寂寞. 一個人, 兩個人或一群人, 日子還是要過. 與其悲觀的否定事實, 倒不如學習接受, 旣而設法改變.
我得承認, 一個人在外住久了, 說好聽是獨立, 說白一點是會變的有些孤僻. 我可以跟一大群朋友吃飯喝酒聊天唱歌跳舞直到深夜, 也可以自己一個人吃飯看電影逛街上課做運動. 一群人有一群人的熱鬧, 一個人也有一個人的寧靜.
如果我找伴侶的動機只是為了寂寞的話, 事情會簡單的多.
只是, 要找到能了解自己在講什麼想什麼而不把我當成異類怪女人, 能跟我一起分享學習生命中的美好事物而不以高姿態評判 “你什麼都會了男朋友還能做什麼” 的人並不容易. 在多數的情況下, 我選擇了隱藏, 學會了沉默與傾聽, 學會了輕拍跌倒之後的衣袖與塵灰, 再站起來繼續前行.
如果這樣是長大成熟, 也許我寧願回到10 年前那個看到像陽光般燦爛的笑容時會融化的自己.
Monday, August 20, 2007
慢慢地
慢慢地, 你發現有些事會過去, 有些人會逝去, 有些記憶會褪去.
離開一個地方到另一個地方, 你以為丟下的只是不好的回憶, 卻沒想到好與不好的都慢慢在另一個忙碌的生活中散去.
試著去抓住些什麼, 卻又什麼也抓不住.
離開一個地方到另一個地方, 你以為丟下的只是不好的回憶, 卻沒想到好與不好的都慢慢在另一個忙碌的生活中散去.
試著去抓住些什麼, 卻又什麼也抓不住.
Friday, August 17, 2007
單身公害
不知為何, 單身好像已經不是我一個人的問題, 而是大家的問題?!
回港的第一天, 從奧克蘭來出差的同事就已經很熱情的要把她在香港工作的朋友介紹給我認識, 飯局在當晚就已經安排好了. 果真是做傳播的料, 全行銷部的同事 (連我老闆) 都知道我要去會見一個很優秀, 很像明星的帥哥, 也都很期待之後我們會擦出怎樣的火花.
事實是, 期待越大, 失望也越大 (我指我的同事們).
對於這方面類似"相親"的安排, 我都是秉持著"多認識一個朋友"的心態, 看的對眼談的來, 可以繼續發展友誼或另一段更深層的關係, 若不來電也沒關係, 大家吃吃飯聊聊天, 增長見聞或多一個朋友都好, 沒必要一定是要一役决勝負.
這樣的心態, 常讓周圍的同事/朋友們覺得我一定是條件設的太高, 又或是眼睛長在頭頂上, 才會至今仍獨身. Oh my god, what a big misunderstanding!! 我也很想有個伴, 不過沒碰到合適的, 或喜歡的人家不喜歡我/不可以喜歡我, 你能如何? 我已經是很不矜持的女生 (以一般亞洲人的衡量標準), 難道非得要我在報紙頭版登全版徵婚廣告才能看出我的決心?
我知道, 我的生活圈太小, 我的工作忙, 我常飛來飛去, 居無定所, 我.................. 我知道再多的理由都無法隱藏我單身的事實, 不過我是真的盡我所能的去改變這些外在因素. 成為公害, 也真的不是我願意的阿...
回港的第一天, 從奧克蘭來出差的同事就已經很熱情的要把她在香港工作的朋友介紹給我認識, 飯局在當晚就已經安排好了. 果真是做傳播的料, 全行銷部的同事 (連我老闆) 都知道我要去會見一個很優秀, 很像明星的帥哥, 也都很期待之後我們會擦出怎樣的火花.
事實是, 期待越大, 失望也越大 (我指我的同事們).
對於這方面類似"相親"的安排, 我都是秉持著"多認識一個朋友"的心態, 看的對眼談的來, 可以繼續發展友誼或另一段更深層的關係, 若不來電也沒關係, 大家吃吃飯聊聊天, 增長見聞或多一個朋友都好, 沒必要一定是要一役决勝負.
這樣的心態, 常讓周圍的同事/朋友們覺得我一定是條件設的太高, 又或是眼睛長在頭頂上, 才會至今仍獨身. Oh my god, what a big misunderstanding!! 我也很想有個伴, 不過沒碰到合適的, 或喜歡的人家不喜歡我/不可以喜歡我, 你能如何? 我已經是很不矜持的女生 (以一般亞洲人的衡量標準), 難道非得要我在報紙頭版登全版徵婚廣告才能看出我的決心?
我知道, 我的生活圈太小, 我的工作忙, 我常飛來飛去, 居無定所, 我.................. 我知道再多的理由都無法隱藏我單身的事實, 不過我是真的盡我所能的去改變這些外在因素. 成為公害, 也真的不是我願意的阿...
Thursday, August 16, 2007
旅行計畫
時光飛逝, 距離上一次歐洲之行的旅遊已是一年前的事了.
今年沒到處亂跑, 除了出公差及與家人旅遊外, 就是很努力的工作....把去年近半年不見的工資賺回來 (失業四個月外加旅遊兩個月).
年假至今也累積17天了, 加上額外因服務多年多賺的5天, 可以"起碼"跑走個1 - 2個禮拜. 算算手頭上的案子, 如果幸運的話應該可以在11月中後休個小假.
到哪去好呢?
要不就去漢城看老朋友, 要不就去南半球的大堡礁來個潛水兼放鬆之旅. 跑遠一點是也可以 (如歐洲), 如果有合適的行程.
有旅伴是好, 沒有的話就 1) 帶爸媽出遊; 2) 自助旅行; 3) 再參加像 Contiki 一樣的青年團了 :)
今年沒到處亂跑, 除了出公差及與家人旅遊外, 就是很努力的工作....把去年近半年不見的工資賺回來 (失業四個月外加旅遊兩個月).
年假至今也累積17天了, 加上額外因服務多年多賺的5天, 可以"起碼"跑走個1 - 2個禮拜. 算算手頭上的案子, 如果幸運的話應該可以在11月中後休個小假.
到哪去好呢?
要不就去漢城看老朋友, 要不就去南半球的大堡礁來個潛水兼放鬆之旅. 跑遠一點是也可以 (如歐洲), 如果有合適的行程.
有旅伴是好, 沒有的話就 1) 帶爸媽出遊; 2) 自助旅行; 3) 再參加像 Contiki 一樣的青年團了 :)
Friday, August 10, 2007
八號風球
雖然氣象局宣布在下午2:30時懸掛八號風球 (香港的颱風警示), 不過除了下午的一場大雨外, 實在看不出有什麼颱風的跡象. 也許是因為中環被太多高樓大廈包圍, 沒能真正見識到颱風的威力; 也許是因為我來自台灣, 早對颱風帶來的狂風暴雨司空見慣. 這點小雨, 小 case 啦!
出國這幾年, 早已忘了放颱風假是何滋味. 才回到香港不過幾天就經歷1, 3, 8 號風球, 同事笑說我好像小學生一樣的興奮. 哈, 想當年住校時, 還曾踏著便當簍涉水出校門, 也曾看過家另一面的山坡全淹在水澤中, 台北市的路燈行道數被吹的七倒八歪的是常有的事. 我倒真不覺得香港的情況會太嚴重(我指市區), 不過住在離島或山坡邊的就另當別論了.
此時的路上已是一片冷清, 霓虹燈依舊閃爍. 地鐵應該是不會被影響, 把剩下的email 發發後去IFC逛逛囉...
出國這幾年, 早已忘了放颱風假是何滋味. 才回到香港不過幾天就經歷1, 3, 8 號風球, 同事笑說我好像小學生一樣的興奮. 哈, 想當年住校時, 還曾踏著便當簍涉水出校門, 也曾看過家另一面的山坡全淹在水澤中, 台北市的路燈行道數被吹的七倒八歪的是常有的事. 我倒真不覺得香港的情況會太嚴重(我指市區), 不過住在離島或山坡邊的就另當別論了.
此時的路上已是一片冷清, 霓虹燈依舊閃爍. 地鐵應該是不會被影響, 把剩下的email 發發後去IFC逛逛囉...
Monday, July 30, 2007
隨手寫寫
明天過後, 又老了一歲了…
在這次旅行之前, 我知道我是有些刻意安排要在這個時候在奧克蘭. 雖然朋友是到處都有, 不過現在還有時間和這份熱情陪我瞎起哄的朋友, 大概是這裡的密集度最高了.
原先想要在這一天鬧消失, 不過朋友覺得那實在不是一個好主意, 只好很不免俗的找了幾個好友吃飯. 按照我以往的style, 一定是大辦 party, 然後包場找一堆朋友慶祝. 不過年紀大了, 有時覺得質比量更重要. 熱鬧之後, 又是回到現實的一個人, 還不如就從頭到尾都是一個人.
很意外的收到一個不會想到的祝福, 在這個很不意外的地方更顯意外.
上星期五請了一天病假, 其實也沒病的很嚴重, 只是想要休息. 天氣很好, 起的很晚, 到超市買了些水果, 整理了一下家裡, 還很隨意的逛了個街, 流了點血 (血拼嘛!). 每回一開始這樣的生活, 就會開始想再回到紐西蘭. 不過為了達到這樣的理想, 我還是得要再多打拼幾年, 也好好的找個伴, 早點終結一個人漂泊的日子.
周六時起個清早 (凌晨3點), 為了要去 Mt. Ruapehu 滑雪. 這次沒挑 skiing, 像初學者一樣開始學 snowboarding. 照樣摔的很慘, 不過比起 skiing 的兩個 ski 外加兩個 pole, 一個 snowboard 打下來不會太痛. 我也沒有對自己太demanding, 畢竟回到香港時是夏天, 腳上如果有一塊大淤青的話就真的很難看了.
住的地方很不好找, 但景緻真的很好. 陽台望出去就是一大片湖, 很寧靜, 很美. 昨天也上了山, 不過天氣不好, 風大雨大的, 最後決定不滑, 就一路吃吃喝喝回到奧克蘭. 啊, 真是typical 的NZ weekend :)
在這次旅行之前, 我知道我是有些刻意安排要在這個時候在奧克蘭. 雖然朋友是到處都有, 不過現在還有時間和這份熱情陪我瞎起哄的朋友, 大概是這裡的密集度最高了.
原先想要在這一天鬧消失, 不過朋友覺得那實在不是一個好主意, 只好很不免俗的找了幾個好友吃飯. 按照我以往的style, 一定是大辦 party, 然後包場找一堆朋友慶祝. 不過年紀大了, 有時覺得質比量更重要. 熱鬧之後, 又是回到現實的一個人, 還不如就從頭到尾都是一個人.
很意外的收到一個不會想到的祝福, 在這個很不意外的地方更顯意外.
上星期五請了一天病假, 其實也沒病的很嚴重, 只是想要休息. 天氣很好, 起的很晚, 到超市買了些水果, 整理了一下家裡, 還很隨意的逛了個街, 流了點血 (血拼嘛!). 每回一開始這樣的生活, 就會開始想再回到紐西蘭. 不過為了達到這樣的理想, 我還是得要再多打拼幾年, 也好好的找個伴, 早點終結一個人漂泊的日子.
周六時起個清早 (凌晨3點), 為了要去 Mt. Ruapehu 滑雪. 這次沒挑 skiing, 像初學者一樣開始學 snowboarding. 照樣摔的很慘, 不過比起 skiing 的兩個 ski 外加兩個 pole, 一個 snowboard 打下來不會太痛. 我也沒有對自己太demanding, 畢竟回到香港時是夏天, 腳上如果有一塊大淤青的話就真的很難看了.
住的地方很不好找, 但景緻真的很好. 陽台望出去就是一大片湖, 很寧靜, 很美. 昨天也上了山, 不過天氣不好, 風大雨大的, 最後決定不滑, 就一路吃吃喝喝回到奧克蘭. 啊, 真是typical 的NZ weekend :)
Monday, July 23, 2007
Life in Auckland
Arrived Auckland last Wed afternoon. The first feeling after getting off the airplane was: so good to see the sunshine and blue sky again. The air was fresh, though dry, a familiar smell.
It was the first sunny day after two weeks of raining. Friend said I were lucky, it's sunny, and not too cold. In fact, it's getting colder now - only 6 degree this morning when I was listening to the radio. No wonder it's so hard for me to wake up in the freezing morning :P
Met up with some friends, and done 70% of my shopping mission in New Market and Ponsonby. I know that I am now working in HK and there are heaps more and cheaper choices for me to shop around; however, it's easier, and more interesting (though more expensive due to the rising kiwi) for me to shop here, and plus, less people! It's a lovely weather yesterday and people sitting outside cafes to enjoy the sunshine and socialising despite the chilling wind, which is rarely seen in the central HK and that's what I love most when hanging around on the street.
Working here is as busy as in HK, or even busier, but other than work, life is not that busy or fast pace here. I particularly like the "smell of winter(冬天的味道)" here, which can often be felt in drier countries like US, Canada, Japan etc. Guess it's just the link to some nice old memories with those countries.
At least my nose is not running nor blocked....and the allergy/flu haunted me for almost three weeks in HK was gone from the first day I came back...
It was the first sunny day after two weeks of raining. Friend said I were lucky, it's sunny, and not too cold. In fact, it's getting colder now - only 6 degree this morning when I was listening to the radio. No wonder it's so hard for me to wake up in the freezing morning :P
Met up with some friends, and done 70% of my shopping mission in New Market and Ponsonby. I know that I am now working in HK and there are heaps more and cheaper choices for me to shop around; however, it's easier, and more interesting (though more expensive due to the rising kiwi) for me to shop here, and plus, less people! It's a lovely weather yesterday and people sitting outside cafes to enjoy the sunshine and socialising despite the chilling wind, which is rarely seen in the central HK and that's what I love most when hanging around on the street.
Working here is as busy as in HK, or even busier, but other than work, life is not that busy or fast pace here. I particularly like the "smell of winter(冬天的味道)" here, which can often be felt in drier countries like US, Canada, Japan etc. Guess it's just the link to some nice old memories with those countries.
At least my nose is not running nor blocked....and the allergy/flu haunted me for almost three weeks in HK was gone from the first day I came back...
Friday, July 13, 2007
工作要做, 命也要顧
我不喜歡加班, 更不喜歡睡覺時還得要想著工作上的事. 如果再加上半夜會突然被工作做不完的惡夢嚇醒的話, 事情就真的大條了.
很不幸的, 前兩樣在這星期都發生了....
當在11:30pm因為地鐵快沒有車才匆忙的離開辦公室, 當在睡前半個小時才匢圇的吞下半碗湯果腹當晚餐, 當碰到床時不到10秒內就昏睡的不醒人事到隔天鬧鐘響起, 我知道的不但是自己已不復當年勇可以連熬夜數晚還是猛龍一條, 還有到底值不值得為工作把命跟健康, 還有未來都陪上?
我終於知道為什麼自己還是單身的原因, 有哪個正常的男人想跟老是把辦公室當家的女人在一起. 眼前的電腦也不是阿拉丁神燈, 不會在夜半人寂時跳出精靈來問候你.
我開始猶豫, 到底是因為自己的工作效率不高, 能力不好, 還是工作量真的不堪負荷. 或許是, 只是一時的情緒. 下星期一上班, 又是好漢一條...
下星期要回奧克蘭了, 希望這樣的夢靨不會繼續.
很不幸的, 前兩樣在這星期都發生了....
當在11:30pm因為地鐵快沒有車才匆忙的離開辦公室, 當在睡前半個小時才匢圇的吞下半碗湯果腹當晚餐, 當碰到床時不到10秒內就昏睡的不醒人事到隔天鬧鐘響起, 我知道的不但是自己已不復當年勇可以連熬夜數晚還是猛龍一條, 還有到底值不值得為工作把命跟健康, 還有未來都陪上?
我終於知道為什麼自己還是單身的原因, 有哪個正常的男人想跟老是把辦公室當家的女人在一起. 眼前的電腦也不是阿拉丁神燈, 不會在夜半人寂時跳出精靈來問候你.
我開始猶豫, 到底是因為自己的工作效率不高, 能力不好, 還是工作量真的不堪負荷. 或許是, 只是一時的情緒. 下星期一上班, 又是好漢一條...
下星期要回奧克蘭了, 希望這樣的夢靨不會繼續.
Thursday, July 5, 2007
NZ dollar has gone crazy
Ma ma mi a, at the time of writing, the exchange rate of NZDUSD is traded at 0.7865/0.7870, already broke the 10-year historical high and don't know how high it still aims!
Though I shall feel happy when most of my asset are still in NZD, while on the other hand I am also panic that it will be like roller-coaster, at a point of time it just suddenly drops with full speed and so little time for you to scream out before it gets down to the lowest end.
It's so dangerous when a country doesn't have such a robust economy but only nature resources to keep having a rising currency and the government can do nothing to interfere with comparatively little fund againist the overwelming capital flow from speculators all over the world.
The global economy free flow capital might contribute to a new class of rich people but on the other hand also sacrifice the benefits of another group of people. End of day for people without power without resources to fight back, hardly for them to be the winner in the game. Cruel, isn't it?
Though I shall feel happy when most of my asset are still in NZD, while on the other hand I am also panic that it will be like roller-coaster, at a point of time it just suddenly drops with full speed and so little time for you to scream out before it gets down to the lowest end.
It's so dangerous when a country doesn't have such a robust economy but only nature resources to keep having a rising currency and the government can do nothing to interfere with comparatively little fund againist the overwelming capital flow from speculators all over the world.
The global economy free flow capital might contribute to a new class of rich people but on the other hand also sacrifice the benefits of another group of people. End of day for people without power without resources to fight back, hardly for them to be the winner in the game. Cruel, isn't it?
Tuesday, July 3, 2007
十年
今年7月1日是香港回歸中國的第十年, 香港政府為此舉行了許多大型慶祝活動, 遊行, 跳傘, 放煙花等, 好不熱鬧. 電視台也應景的做了許多有關”十年”的節目. 看著香港的經濟從亞洲金融危機, SARS等的低潮走出再到今日恆生指數突破兩萬點的蓬勃發展, 一向覺得香港人很 “勢利” “向錢看” 的我, 也慢慢對他們這樣的存活哲學有了另一種不同的體認.
離開台灣至今, 也差不多有9 年了. 雖不能用 “物換星移, 人事已非” 這等滄慯的語句來形容過去的9 年, 不過雖不過, 卻不遠矣. 我的第一份工作, 就是在當時最火熱的電子產業, 出國的前半年, 老闆原要把我從助理業務調為業務, 負責海外分部, 無奈父母命難為, 移民簽證即到期的我只能把要去美國念書的計畫 360 度大轉變至從來沒想過的紐西蘭. 我常說: “計畫趕不上變化”, 如果當時不出國, 如果當時不選擇紐西蘭, 如果........, 我現在會是什麼樣?
不過過去的十年, 也確實是我的人生中最變化的十年, 從學生到就業, 從台灣到海外, 從懵懂無知到逐漸事故, 只差沒有從單身到結婚, 從為人女到為人母. 我想對每一個我這般年紀的人, 過去的十年或多或少都有這樣”變化”的體認. 我的變化還不算完整, 也不算完美, 要突破, 也要進步, 期許在下一個”十年”的周期開始時, 我對我的另一個十年有更滿意的註腳.
離開台灣至今, 也差不多有9 年了. 雖不能用 “物換星移, 人事已非” 這等滄慯的語句來形容過去的9 年, 不過雖不過, 卻不遠矣. 我的第一份工作, 就是在當時最火熱的電子產業, 出國的前半年, 老闆原要把我從助理業務調為業務, 負責海外分部, 無奈父母命難為, 移民簽證即到期的我只能把要去美國念書的計畫 360 度大轉變至從來沒想過的紐西蘭. 我常說: “計畫趕不上變化”, 如果當時不出國, 如果當時不選擇紐西蘭, 如果........, 我現在會是什麼樣?
不過過去的十年, 也確實是我的人生中最變化的十年, 從學生到就業, 從台灣到海外, 從懵懂無知到逐漸事故, 只差沒有從單身到結婚, 從為人女到為人母. 我想對每一個我這般年紀的人, 過去的十年或多或少都有這樣”變化”的體認. 我的變化還不算完整, 也不算完美, 要突破, 也要進步, 期許在下一個”十年”的周期開始時, 我對我的另一個十年有更滿意的註腳.
Thursday, June 28, 2007
完成了
終於在今天把該寫的報告完成了...哇哈哈哈!
不脫我一貫的傳統, 10頁就是10頁, 不多也不少, 主題是"Reliable and Efficient Electronic Trading Environment - Enhancement Initiative for System and Business Process". 原先只是單單針對Auto Trading 所要做的項目分析, 結果不知道為什麼會叫我寫這個這麼大範圍的主題. Anyway, 長篇大論我是不會, 圖表和 spreadsheet 分析我倒還行, 希望 Management 不會覺得我太懶惰全部都用表格和 bullet point, 反正最慘就是退回來重新寫.
報告寫完了, 接下來就是忙另一個新產品的推出了. 監管單位現在卯起來認真看我們的文件了, 不過沒關係, 兵來將擋, 水來土淹, 有了之前的經驗, 在 compliance 方面我特別加長了時間準備, 希望能夠搶得市場先機, 早日推出新產品. 很多東西還是要不斷加強和學習, 不過看到事情漸上軌道, 也是很滿足的.
白頭髮又開始長了, 不知道什麼時候我也可以當個不做事的少奶奶每天逛街, 做臉, 喝咖啡, 聊是非? 不過我看我這樣的勞碌命是很難改變的, 早點面對現實多努力工作賺錢了....
不脫我一貫的傳統, 10頁就是10頁, 不多也不少, 主題是"Reliable and Efficient Electronic Trading Environment - Enhancement Initiative for System and Business Process". 原先只是單單針對Auto Trading 所要做的項目分析, 結果不知道為什麼會叫我寫這個這麼大範圍的主題. Anyway, 長篇大論我是不會, 圖表和 spreadsheet 分析我倒還行, 希望 Management 不會覺得我太懶惰全部都用表格和 bullet point, 反正最慘就是退回來重新寫.
報告寫完了, 接下來就是忙另一個新產品的推出了. 監管單位現在卯起來認真看我們的文件了, 不過沒關係, 兵來將擋, 水來土淹, 有了之前的經驗, 在 compliance 方面我特別加長了時間準備, 希望能夠搶得市場先機, 早日推出新產品. 很多東西還是要不斷加強和學習, 不過看到事情漸上軌道, 也是很滿足的.
白頭髮又開始長了, 不知道什麼時候我也可以當個不做事的少奶奶每天逛街, 做臉, 喝咖啡, 聊是非? 不過我看我這樣的勞碌命是很難改變的, 早點面對現實多努力工作賺錢了....
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
2P 與未甦醒的城市
好友要從台灣回澳洲, 在上週六時停留香港一天. 時間緊迫, 只能挑選菁華部分 - 分別是 Peninsula Hotel 半島酒店 (第一P), Harbour City 海港城, Peak 山頂 (第二 P) 和 Lam Kwan Fong 蘭桂坊. 非常 materialistic, 不過對我來說卻也是在短時間之內走馬看花的捷徑.
如果交通時間允許的話, 到赤柱西貢走走, 或到海洋公園,Disneyland 玩玩也是不錯的選擇. 喜歡試運氣的可以到馬場或澳門. 吃喝玩樂, 可奢華可平民, 可靡爛可安逸, 端看遊者的心情與荷包. 香港地鐵的好處就是方便, 加上小巴, 火車, 船和 Taxi, 四通八達, 24 hours 7 days all available!
哈, 我像是在為旅遊局打工似的 :)
隔天一早和好友在機鐵站告別, 清早的香港, 有著不尋常但卻很悠閒的寧靜, 未甦醒的香港有著另一種沒有修飾的美, 清新不帶壓力.
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
流感
有一種流行最好不要趕, 那就是流行性感冒.
很不幸的, 什麼流行我都不是很愛趕, 不過對於流感, 我常是身不由己的踏入流行的行列中...鼻敏感的體質, 讓我在香港台灣這種潮濕多灰塵的環境下異發脆弱, 除非搬到國外空氣乾燥的地方, 只能自求多福, 多做運動提高免疫力.
我在猜, 鼻子會這麼高的原因, 可能是因為我常擤鼻子的關係?
昨天像沒鎖緊的水龍頭不斷的流鼻水, 今天則是年老失修, 鼻塞, 流鼻水, 咳嗽, 喉嚨痛通通一起來了. 很想專心的把報告寫完, 無奈空氣不流通的大腦也很無力.
有幫浦可以借嗎?
很不幸的, 什麼流行我都不是很愛趕, 不過對於流感, 我常是身不由己的踏入流行的行列中...鼻敏感的體質, 讓我在香港台灣這種潮濕多灰塵的環境下異發脆弱, 除非搬到國外空氣乾燥的地方, 只能自求多福, 多做運動提高免疫力.
我在猜, 鼻子會這麼高的原因, 可能是因為我常擤鼻子的關係?
昨天像沒鎖緊的水龍頭不斷的流鼻水, 今天則是年老失修, 鼻塞, 流鼻水, 咳嗽, 喉嚨痛通通一起來了. 很想專心的把報告寫完, 無奈空氣不流通的大腦也很無力.
有幫浦可以借嗎?
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Long time no see
Due to the recent busier workload, I have been disappeared for a while not able to update anything on the blog. No news is good news, apart from deciding not to continue the class with the guy and parents' visit, nothing really new.
One thing may be more exciting - planning to go back to New Zealand in mid July for couple of weeks and so look forward to seeing old friends and going skiing down south. Plus, celebrating my birthday with bunch of good old friends :)
Heard the news last week that the CEO of HSBC Hong Kong was headhunted to ANZ Australia and the remuneration package is 3 million base salary plus bonus of 9 million - unbelievable high regardless of payout in AUD or USD! Don't know when I would be able to achieve that so to retire early, or it's a dream which can only be dreamed....No wonder so many people want to be CEO, the money is indeed appealing.
Time to go home now, got a exam tomorrow and have not ever started a word.
One thing may be more exciting - planning to go back to New Zealand in mid July for couple of weeks and so look forward to seeing old friends and going skiing down south. Plus, celebrating my birthday with bunch of good old friends :)
Heard the news last week that the CEO of HSBC Hong Kong was headhunted to ANZ Australia and the remuneration package is 3 million base salary plus bonus of 9 million - unbelievable high regardless of payout in AUD or USD! Don't know when I would be able to achieve that so to retire early, or it's a dream which can only be dreamed....No wonder so many people want to be CEO, the money is indeed appealing.
Time to go home now, got a exam tomorrow and have not ever started a word.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Monday, June 11, 2007
赤柱半日遊
昨天其實不是個適合外出郊遊的好日子. 天色陰暗, 大雨滂沱, 不知道情況的可能會覺得颱風要來了.
然而, 這樣的天氣卻絲毫不減我的阿姨們因為第一次開始 "週休一日" 而想出去走走的興致. 於是乎, 在篩選過不同的地方後, 赤柱成了首選.
除了那個房地產的廣告外 (終於知道那個看似像天堂的地方存在在西貢), 再次發現另一個有山有水的好地方. 想像天晴的時候, 坐在餐廳外或行走在海邊享受溫暖的陽光, 新鮮的空氣, 和蔚藍的海水, 是多麼的輕鬆和悠閒.
難怪, 會有不少的外國觀光客到此一遊.
香港的商人也是很聰明的, 離海邊不遠馬上就有一條"市場街". 享受自然美景之餘, 也讓你有機會買買一些紀念品. 好笑的是, 連現在住在香港的我都買了些, 看來還是不夠"香港化". 哈.
下星期日不知道又會去哪兒了?
然而, 這樣的天氣卻絲毫不減我的阿姨們因為第一次開始 "週休一日" 而想出去走走的興致. 於是乎, 在篩選過不同的地方後, 赤柱成了首選.
除了那個房地產的廣告外 (終於知道那個看似像天堂的地方存在在西貢), 再次發現另一個有山有水的好地方. 想像天晴的時候, 坐在餐廳外或行走在海邊享受溫暖的陽光, 新鮮的空氣, 和蔚藍的海水, 是多麼的輕鬆和悠閒.
難怪, 會有不少的外國觀光客到此一遊.
香港的商人也是很聰明的, 離海邊不遠馬上就有一條"市場街". 享受自然美景之餘, 也讓你有機會買買一些紀念品. 好笑的是, 連現在住在香港的我都買了些, 看來還是不夠"香港化". 哈.
下星期日不知道又會去哪兒了?
Thursday, June 7, 2007
Lately
Mentally have not been fully recovered while the worse part is physically I am also going down under. Not sure it's because of the heated weather in HK, or the overtime at work lately, or just simply the reflection of my recent mental instability. Maybe, it's a mixture of all of them.
The temperature difference between the outside and inside the office is killing, like 32 degree v.s 23 degree. My allergy symptom gets severe under this kind of contrast, like I used to have in Taiwan before leaving for overseas. It's not very environmental friendly to feel like in a fridge when outside it's like in an oven.
Near home there is a new bookstore opening recently. At least something cheerful and somewhere more meaningful to go besides shopping mall during the weekend. My mental doctor will be there...
Tuesday, June 5, 2007
Sea
Recently there is a property advertisement on TV. I can't exactly recall the property name but am deeply touched by the scenery in the ads. There are forest, winding road, harbor, yachts, and a blue sky - they surprisingly exist in Hong Kong, thought I don't know where it is.The attached photo was taken on a fishing trip back in 2005 in Auckland. When the weather is nice, the color of the sea will be shinier. It's indeed beautiful with a crystal blue sky, sunshine and breeze.
Sea is the best companion, whenever you are in the cheerful mood or just want to be alone to wipe off the tears. I was once walking and crying along the Mission Bay, after back and forth for alomost the whole afternoon, felt more calm down and relieved.
When you are alone in the crowd and when you are alone not in the crowd, which you will choose?
Monday, June 4, 2007
Busy. Blind. and Get Lost
In Chinese, the title will be interpreted as "忙, 盲, 茫". I don't know whether it will be the correct English translation, but that's the closest I could come up with.
Typing Chinese is too time consuming. English is easier.
I am still trying to recover from being a souless body, while in the meantime am back to the workholic again. It's a sickness, I know, but at least it helps to distract my mind not to think about what had been gone. What else can I do - being a shopholic or eatholic? Don't think it's an effective solution neither.
Remaining blind and lost, until one day I will be able to see the light at the other end of the tunnel.
Typing Chinese is too time consuming. English is easier.
I am still trying to recover from being a souless body, while in the meantime am back to the workholic again. It's a sickness, I know, but at least it helps to distract my mind not to think about what had been gone. What else can I do - being a shopholic or eatholic? Don't think it's an effective solution neither.
Remaining blind and lost, until one day I will be able to see the light at the other end of the tunnel.
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Souless Body
I am totally malfunctioned today, can't concentrate, can't think properly, like a soulless body, with a broken heart.
The guy has a girlfriend, which was announced openly last night. Everything is back to zero. Right after that, I knew my brain was blank for the whole night.
Luckily a friend was staying with me to listen to and comfort me, otherwise I will collapse if by myself.
I might have already guessed that it will happen, just feel shocked it comes so fast. Stupid as I am, don't even have chance to do anything anymore to approve I do care. It's gone.
Just want to disappear... and be silent ...
The guy has a girlfriend, which was announced openly last night. Everything is back to zero. Right after that, I knew my brain was blank for the whole night.
Luckily a friend was staying with me to listen to and comfort me, otherwise I will collapse if by myself.
I might have already guessed that it will happen, just feel shocked it comes so fast. Stupid as I am, don't even have chance to do anything anymore to approve I do care. It's gone.
Just want to disappear... and be silent ...
Monday, May 28, 2007
Hong Kong, a happening place
I used to not being very impressed with Hong Kong due to the crowded living environment and some stereotypes heard/experienced from the past. However after actually having working and living in HK for sometime, some interesting phenomenons are worthwhile to be discovered more.
Business wise, it's indeed a central place, where a lot of influential business people stay or come here to make their business decisions, no matter it's from Asia, Europe, America or Australia/New Zealand. Back home I do occasionally participate in meetings with overseas partners, while the scale of internationalism and frequency is certainly less than that in Hong Kong.
Entertainment wise, needless to say that it's a place full of man-made stuff, and as long as you can afford it, nothing is impossible (except something can't be bought or created by money). I happened to see a music concert last week in the famous Hong Kong Coliseum and it's really worth for the money spend, the venue, the sounding, the stage/lighting design, and even the entry/exit arrangement all combined well to make the performance stand out.
Personal life wise, well, depending on what you want out of it. There are a lot of shopping malls, beauty (hair, face, body etc) salons, cosmestic products, luxury goods and etc to make you look like a million dollar doll (as I said, nothing is impossible if you have the money). I feel guilty if I don't make myself look good under this kind of the environment, though at times do miss natual and relaxed style back home. I know I am relatively lazy on maintaining myself compared with average girls so can't complain too much.
On the outskirt of main Hong Kong or Kowloon islands there are still quite a few good places to visit, just need to plan that and find the companion to go with. It took slightly longer than other places for me to like Hong Kong (partially it's because I had been here for many times to lost the interest of discovery) but surely I would be able to find out more about this happening place.
Business wise, it's indeed a central place, where a lot of influential business people stay or come here to make their business decisions, no matter it's from Asia, Europe, America or Australia/New Zealand. Back home I do occasionally participate in meetings with overseas partners, while the scale of internationalism and frequency is certainly less than that in Hong Kong.
Entertainment wise, needless to say that it's a place full of man-made stuff, and as long as you can afford it, nothing is impossible (except something can't be bought or created by money). I happened to see a music concert last week in the famous Hong Kong Coliseum and it's really worth for the money spend, the venue, the sounding, the stage/lighting design, and even the entry/exit arrangement all combined well to make the performance stand out.
Personal life wise, well, depending on what you want out of it. There are a lot of shopping malls, beauty (hair, face, body etc) salons, cosmestic products, luxury goods and etc to make you look like a million dollar doll (as I said, nothing is impossible if you have the money). I feel guilty if I don't make myself look good under this kind of the environment, though at times do miss natual and relaxed style back home. I know I am relatively lazy on maintaining myself compared with average girls so can't complain too much.
On the outskirt of main Hong Kong or Kowloon islands there are still quite a few good places to visit, just need to plan that and find the companion to go with. It took slightly longer than other places for me to like Hong Kong (partially it's because I had been here for many times to lost the interest of discovery) but surely I would be able to find out more about this happening place.
Monday, May 21, 2007
想家
上個週末的天氣很糟糕, 雷雨交加, 原先想出去走走的念頭也只得打消, 待在家中把衣服文件等東西好好整理, 很居家的週末, 不過也很踏實, 比起在 shopping mall 中胡亂逛又花錢的情況好的多.
真正 private 居住的空間不大, 一個有衛浴設備的小套房. 重新整理之後, 發現帶來香港的東西還真不少, 不過要讓它變成有"家"的感覺, 需要的東西也是不少.
霎時間, 又有想家的感覺了.
說真的, 我是還滿愛買家居用品的, 不過在不知道 permanent destination 會在哪的情況下, 有些東西只能限於 "看, 但不可以出手", 否則搬家時面對滿山滿谷的東西就會有想哭的衝動 - 丟又捨不得, 帶又帶不走.
有時對某些物品/東西的依戀, 其實是為加深一種歸屬感的反應. 家, 也是.
真正 private 居住的空間不大, 一個有衛浴設備的小套房. 重新整理之後, 發現帶來香港的東西還真不少, 不過要讓它變成有"家"的感覺, 需要的東西也是不少.
霎時間, 又有想家的感覺了.
說真的, 我是還滿愛買家居用品的, 不過在不知道 permanent destination 會在哪的情況下, 有些東西只能限於 "看, 但不可以出手", 否則搬家時面對滿山滿谷的東西就會有想哭的衝動 - 丟又捨不得, 帶又帶不走.
有時對某些物品/東西的依戀, 其實是為加深一種歸屬感的反應. 家, 也是.
Thursday, May 17, 2007
第三者
我曾被第三者介入我的感情, 也曾當過別人的第三者, 現在則是看著喜歡的人逐漸被另一個新進者慢慢帶走, 除了難過之外, 不知還能再做些什麼.
要我再去介入當第三者, 我不想, 也不願意了. 如果這個人的心在你身上, 你不用去搶他也會在你身邊; 如果不是的話, 即使短時間搶到了, 也會像斷線的風箏, 線握在手上, 風箏卻飛走了. 愛情, 從來沒有先來後到的秩序和規定.
這人還不是我的男朋友, 他可能知道, 或是不知道我喜歡他. 我只曉得, 過了復活節之後, 我的心情雖然很平靜, 但卻再也沒有起來過.
即使不斷的跟自己說要放下, 卻很難做的徹底.
要我再去介入當第三者, 我不想, 也不願意了. 如果這個人的心在你身上, 你不用去搶他也會在你身邊; 如果不是的話, 即使短時間搶到了, 也會像斷線的風箏, 線握在手上, 風箏卻飛走了. 愛情, 從來沒有先來後到的秩序和規定.
這人還不是我的男朋友, 他可能知道, 或是不知道我喜歡他. 我只曉得, 過了復活節之後, 我的心情雖然很平靜, 但卻再也沒有起來過.
即使不斷的跟自己說要放下, 卻很難做的徹底.
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Charlie
當初弟弟把 Charlie 帶回家時, 他只有兩歲大, 很乖, 很討人愛的一隻 King Charles. 弟弟一直一來想養狗, 不過礙於台灣的空間不大, 他在求學階段也沒太多的時間可以照顧狗狗, 只好作罷. 能夠領養到 Charlie 是我們的福氣, 他原先的小主人到以色列當義工, 爸媽也因為忙而無法照顧 Charlie, 四處詢問朋友下輾轉找到我們. 弟弟二話不說, 開著他的 RAV4 直衝北岸把 Charlie 帶回來.
跟 Charlie 變熟, 是在弟弟去澳洲唸書之後. 我不是不喜歡狗, 只是會怕狗狗身上的跳蚤. 當初弟弟原本要把狗狗還回去, 擔心我不會, 也沒有時間照顧他. 不過在我央求下, Charlie 留了下來, 開始我與他兩人相依為命的生活.
狗狗跟著我, 其實也是挺可憐的. 平常工作忙, 幾乎是不到早上8點就得出門, 過了晚上8點才會回家. 加上有時要上課或出外與朋友吃飯, 一個禮拜能好好陪他, 大概也只有週末的時候. 有時天氣好, 我會帶他去海邊, 去公園, 或是跟其他朋友的狗狗互相來個"聯誼", 又或是去 Cafe 吃個 brunch (不過他實在是很不適合帶到餐廳, 會興奮的不停叫...). 那段時間也算是我的低潮期, 因為有了Charlie 的陪伴, 即使一個人守在空蕩蕩的屋子裡也比較不會感傷.
我在廚房做事時, Charlie 會搖著尾巴跟著我, 看我做菜, 看我忙東忙西. 無聊時, 他會在旁邊"抓蒼蠅" (我們家 Charlie 的絶活), 或者乾脆回他的小房間睡覺. 看電視時, 他會趴在茶几下, 有時看到電視上有狗時還會跑到電視機後面看狗跑到哪去, 很是有趣.
Charlie 怕閃電, 最討厭貓睡在他的床上. 有一回我出差, Charlie 和爸媽在家, 當天雨下的大, 雷聲不斷, 結果隔天一早, 發現 Charlie 窩睡在弟弟的床上. 後來禁止他跑到 2 樓來, 以後再有閃電, 只能讓他乖乖待在樓下.
養一隻狗, 有很多樂趣, 也有很多責任. Charlie 曾經眼睛灼傷要看眼睛專科治療, 也得過痣瘡 (因為吃太好..), 感冒, 腳扭到...狗狗也會鬧情緒, 會賴床, 會皮, 會撒嬌, 有 short memory, 被打沒多久後又會再犯錯. 像個小孩, 卻也是個永遠不會離棄你的家人.
Charlie 在我離開紐西蘭前被送回原先的主人那, 現在跟著一對 Kiwi 老夫妻在奧克蘭北邊的農場每天跟著一群羊兒們過日子. 我們很想帶他回台灣, 可是那也許不是對他最好的環境. 也許台灣的狗會排斥他, 因為他不會說台語...有一天如果我再回到南半球, 也許會把 Charlie 帶回來, 或者再養一隻小 Charlie...
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
女人~其實嫁誰都會後悔？
朋友寄來了一篇很有意思的文章, 看來女人做"蕾絲邊"（lesbian) 會不會比較幸福? 哈哈...
女人~其實嫁誰都會後悔？
男人總是強調自己的「夢想」，女人擇男也有個人條件。比如男的要有前途、要成熟、要疼自己…… 嫁給哪種男人比較好？比較不會痛罵自己瞎了眼睛？讓我們一個個看過來：
嫁給有錢的男人
食有魚，出有車，豪華別墅，錦衣麗服，珠圍翠繞，暗香瀰漫，這種日子應該很不錯的吧？可是，男人掙錢需要時間和精力，有錢的男人不是錙銖必較的商人，就是忙於應酬的權貴。商人的腦子裡充滿利益，每天算計投入和產出，缺乏溫馨。許多年前的那個江州司馬早已看透了這種男人的本質－重利輕別離。權貴男人的腦子裡充滿關係，每天衡量著該和誰近，該和誰遠，缺乏柔情。有錢的男人往往沒時間，會將女人冷落一邊。嫁給這種男人的女人，等於嫁給電視機，嫁給美容院， 要忍受長久的精神上的空虛，空有一份表面上的華麗，內心的苦澀有誰知道？
嫁給帥哥
顯然是自取滅亡。帥哥就算有心一生只愛你一人，也頂不住別的女人不管不顧的愛心奉獻。帥哥長的帥，艷遇來的快，快的叫你斬不盡殺不絕，春風吹又生，然後你的婚姻就成了一場你方唱罷我登場的鬧劇。
嫁給有閒的男人
每天都有人陪伴，他事情很少，記性好，你的生日，你們的結婚紀念日，甚至你的生日，他都會記得一清二楚。他每天按時回家，還做得一手好菜，願意陪你逛商場，很會教育孩子。你每天生活在他的包圍之中，應該了無遺憾了吧？不，這種男人往往能力有限，沒有很多的錢， 你必須千辛萬苦和他一起打拼，才能獲得一份溫飽生活。看到別的女人養尊處優，年過四十依然面容姣美，十指纖纖，而你年紀輕輕， 已經皮膚粗糙，玉手變形，就會不甘心－別人怎麼能嫁個「鑽石男人」，自己怎麼嫁了個破銅爛鐵？
嫁給會說甜言蜜語的男人
你的心情會格外舒暢，這種男人聰明心細，善於發現女人的美。 你換了一個髮型，換 了一件衣服，甚至換了一種牌子的口紅，他都會及時發現，並馬上讚美。 他會別出心裁地誇獎你透明的耳垂，誇獎你渾圓的腳踝，你會在這種被人欣賞的感覺中陶醉－因為有些美你自己都未發現。可是，你應該清醒一下，這種男人也很善於發現除了你之外的其他女人的美。他會把甜言蜜語說給很多女人聽，你甚至都不知道你是第幾個聽到他甜言蜜語的人。這種男人很危險，一不小心就會在外面豎起幾面「彩旗」，在情感上與別人「分一杯羹」，你會內心充滿痛苦和恥辱的。
嫁給樸實拙訥的男人
你儘管可以放心，他對你忠心耿耿，毫無二心，對身邊擦肩而過的美女絕對可以目不斜視。可是，這種男人往往遲鈍得可怕，你換了一雙新款的鞋子一周了，他都沒有發現； 你問他塗粉色指甲油好還是淺紫色指甲油好，他通常會一臉茫然。嫁給這種缺乏情趣的男人，你會覺得自己的女性之美形同虛設。
嫁給才子
這事怎麼說呢？先把才子分為出人頭地懷才不遇兩種。前者的各種翹楚有徐志摩、郁達夫， 他們的愛情婚姻都轟動一時，可是結果不甚美妙。才子佳人的組合太旖旎，就會折福。懷才不遇的才子最好別嫁，嫁了也是陪他一起譴責上蒼無眼、小人當道、時運不濟。 懷才不遇者都有股怨氣，怨的久了、深了，人也就陰暗了。 別叫我找實例，因為他們都已被殘酷的生活所埋沒。
嫁給專業人士
好像不錯，比如律師醫生，婚後遇到什麼事情都有人護航。 這類人較有素質，一般不會發生秀才遇見兵有理說不清的悲劇。 可他們通常都很忙，半夜要出診，假期不見人，而且可能不浪漫， 有一種嚴謹的職業病，把你一個人困在婚姻裡哀嚎。
嫁給教師
他們很難有陞遷機會，不大會給你驚喜。其工作方式就是從低年級向高年級爬， 然後直線下跌，週而復始，樂此不疲。他們的優點是每年會有三個月可以做家庭婦男，並且免費為子女做家庭教師。
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你也許會說，嫁給既有錢又有閒，既有情趣又有忠貞不渝的男人，肯定不會後悔。是這樣的，但是，世間沒有這麼完美的男人。即使有，我們也配不上－因為我們自身不夠完美。因此，嫁給誰都後悔，我們只能守著一份凡俗的婚姻誰都不能倖免－因為我們都是有缺點的人。 也可能都不會後悔，因為這就是我們要的。兩相權衡取其輕，愛妳所擇，擇妳所愛就好了。
<後記>
原文到此結束. 很有意思的是, 多數的文章都是關於"女人", 卻從未接到任何文章是關於 "男人 - 其實娶誰都會後悔 ? " 我倒很少會在國外看到這樣的論點, 大概是中西文化不同的關係. 不過, 人是會變的, 白手起家的企業家, 他可能在結婚前是個常得跑3點半的窮小子; 帥哥也許年輕時帥, 年老時也跟一般的凡夫俗子沒有太大的分別; 花言巧語, 木訥樸實, 也自有他會吸引到的特定群. 有些人愛安定, 有些人愛變化, 難去用一個 generalised 的準則去衡量所有的例子.
很早以前聽過一個故事, 多數人像缺角的圓一樣不斷在找尋那個缺的角, 不過就算找到了, 圓會變大, 變小, 角會變尖, 變短, 有可能當初十分相合的" 缺角的圓+角", 在不久之後完全不合. 不過如果是 "圓+ 圓", 就沒有角度相合的問題, 而是如何圓包圓, 如何一起從小圓變大圓.
我呢? 期許自己變個成熟的圓, 也希望有一天有另一個圓出現. 他是不是別人眼中的圓我不在意, 是我的圓就足夠了.
女人~其實嫁誰都會後悔？
男人總是強調自己的「夢想」，女人擇男也有個人條件。比如男的要有前途、要成熟、要疼自己…… 嫁給哪種男人比較好？比較不會痛罵自己瞎了眼睛？讓我們一個個看過來：
嫁給有錢的男人
食有魚，出有車，豪華別墅，錦衣麗服，珠圍翠繞，暗香瀰漫，這種日子應該很不錯的吧？可是，男人掙錢需要時間和精力，有錢的男人不是錙銖必較的商人，就是忙於應酬的權貴。商人的腦子裡充滿利益，每天算計投入和產出，缺乏溫馨。許多年前的那個江州司馬早已看透了這種男人的本質－重利輕別離。權貴男人的腦子裡充滿關係，每天衡量著該和誰近，該和誰遠，缺乏柔情。有錢的男人往往沒時間，會將女人冷落一邊。嫁給這種男人的女人，等於嫁給電視機，嫁給美容院， 要忍受長久的精神上的空虛，空有一份表面上的華麗，內心的苦澀有誰知道？
嫁給帥哥
顯然是自取滅亡。帥哥就算有心一生只愛你一人，也頂不住別的女人不管不顧的愛心奉獻。帥哥長的帥，艷遇來的快，快的叫你斬不盡殺不絕，春風吹又生，然後你的婚姻就成了一場你方唱罷我登場的鬧劇。
嫁給有閒的男人
每天都有人陪伴，他事情很少，記性好，你的生日，你們的結婚紀念日，甚至你的生日，他都會記得一清二楚。他每天按時回家，還做得一手好菜，願意陪你逛商場，很會教育孩子。你每天生活在他的包圍之中，應該了無遺憾了吧？不，這種男人往往能力有限，沒有很多的錢， 你必須千辛萬苦和他一起打拼，才能獲得一份溫飽生活。看到別的女人養尊處優，年過四十依然面容姣美，十指纖纖，而你年紀輕輕， 已經皮膚粗糙，玉手變形，就會不甘心－別人怎麼能嫁個「鑽石男人」，自己怎麼嫁了個破銅爛鐵？
嫁給會說甜言蜜語的男人
你的心情會格外舒暢，這種男人聰明心細，善於發現女人的美。 你換了一個髮型，換 了一件衣服，甚至換了一種牌子的口紅，他都會及時發現，並馬上讚美。 他會別出心裁地誇獎你透明的耳垂，誇獎你渾圓的腳踝，你會在這種被人欣賞的感覺中陶醉－因為有些美你自己都未發現。可是，你應該清醒一下，這種男人也很善於發現除了你之外的其他女人的美。他會把甜言蜜語說給很多女人聽，你甚至都不知道你是第幾個聽到他甜言蜜語的人。這種男人很危險，一不小心就會在外面豎起幾面「彩旗」，在情感上與別人「分一杯羹」，你會內心充滿痛苦和恥辱的。
嫁給樸實拙訥的男人
你儘管可以放心，他對你忠心耿耿，毫無二心，對身邊擦肩而過的美女絕對可以目不斜視。可是，這種男人往往遲鈍得可怕，你換了一雙新款的鞋子一周了，他都沒有發現； 你問他塗粉色指甲油好還是淺紫色指甲油好，他通常會一臉茫然。嫁給這種缺乏情趣的男人，你會覺得自己的女性之美形同虛設。
嫁給才子
這事怎麼說呢？先把才子分為出人頭地懷才不遇兩種。前者的各種翹楚有徐志摩、郁達夫， 他們的愛情婚姻都轟動一時，可是結果不甚美妙。才子佳人的組合太旖旎，就會折福。懷才不遇的才子最好別嫁，嫁了也是陪他一起譴責上蒼無眼、小人當道、時運不濟。 懷才不遇者都有股怨氣，怨的久了、深了，人也就陰暗了。 別叫我找實例，因為他們都已被殘酷的生活所埋沒。
嫁給專業人士
好像不錯，比如律師醫生，婚後遇到什麼事情都有人護航。 這類人較有素質，一般不會發生秀才遇見兵有理說不清的悲劇。 可他們通常都很忙，半夜要出診，假期不見人，而且可能不浪漫， 有一種嚴謹的職業病，把你一個人困在婚姻裡哀嚎。
嫁給教師
他們很難有陞遷機會，不大會給你驚喜。其工作方式就是從低年級向高年級爬， 然後直線下跌，週而復始，樂此不疲。他們的優點是每年會有三個月可以做家庭婦男，並且免費為子女做家庭教師。
**********************************************************************************
你也許會說，嫁給既有錢又有閒，既有情趣又有忠貞不渝的男人，肯定不會後悔。是這樣的，但是，世間沒有這麼完美的男人。即使有，我們也配不上－因為我們自身不夠完美。因此，嫁給誰都後悔，我們只能守著一份凡俗的婚姻誰都不能倖免－因為我們都是有缺點的人。 也可能都不會後悔，因為這就是我們要的。兩相權衡取其輕，愛妳所擇，擇妳所愛就好了。
<後記>
原文到此結束. 很有意思的是, 多數的文章都是關於"女人", 卻從未接到任何文章是關於 "男人 - 其實娶誰都會後悔 ? " 我倒很少會在國外看到這樣的論點, 大概是中西文化不同的關係. 不過, 人是會變的, 白手起家的企業家, 他可能在結婚前是個常得跑3點半的窮小子; 帥哥也許年輕時帥, 年老時也跟一般的凡夫俗子沒有太大的分別; 花言巧語, 木訥樸實, 也自有他會吸引到的特定群. 有些人愛安定, 有些人愛變化, 難去用一個 generalised 的準則去衡量所有的例子.
很早以前聽過一個故事, 多數人像缺角的圓一樣不斷在找尋那個缺的角, 不過就算找到了, 圓會變大, 變小, 角會變尖, 變短, 有可能當初十分相合的" 缺角的圓+角", 在不久之後完全不合. 不過如果是 "圓+ 圓", 就沒有角度相合的問題, 而是如何圓包圓, 如何一起從小圓變大圓.
我呢? 期許自己變個成熟的圓, 也希望有一天有另一個圓出現. 他是不是別人眼中的圓我不在意, 是我的圓就足夠了.
意外
我的工作, 最討厭, 也最挑戰的部分就是 "意外" - 人的意外, 事的意外, 第三方的意外, 很多的意外. 尤其當意外總是來自比你早4個鐘頭的時區, 多數時候只能 tend to be reactive rather than proactive.
彈性是一定要有的, 隨時隨地要有重新來過或大幅修改方向的準備也是必須的. 小公司不好的地方就是沒有龐大的分析團隊可以幫你把所有可預見或未預見的風險全數攤在抬面上讓你做沙盤推演, 減少意外的發生率. 不過另一方面來說, 也就是因為小, 應變的速度相對來的快, 只要能應變, 還是有的挽救. 所以啦, 造就我們每一個在公司的中層經理都得有不小的危機處理和變通能力, 否則日子很難過的下去.
不過比起草創時期那種 chaos 的意外, 現今的意外多數是屬於可解決, 只是要多花些時間去處理的事件. 共事的團隊也比較有共識, 能配合, 一起降低意外對公司的影響和衝擊力. 這樣的意外, 就比較像是 surprise, 而不是 accident 了.
彈性是一定要有的, 隨時隨地要有重新來過或大幅修改方向的準備也是必須的. 小公司不好的地方就是沒有龐大的分析團隊可以幫你把所有可預見或未預見的風險全數攤在抬面上讓你做沙盤推演, 減少意外的發生率. 不過另一方面來說, 也就是因為小, 應變的速度相對來的快, 只要能應變, 還是有的挽救. 所以啦, 造就我們每一個在公司的中層經理都得有不小的危機處理和變通能力, 否則日子很難過的下去.
不過比起草創時期那種 chaos 的意外, 現今的意外多數是屬於可解決, 只是要多花些時間去處理的事件. 共事的團隊也比較有共識, 能配合, 一起降低意外對公司的影響和衝擊力. 這樣的意外, 就比較像是 surprise, 而不是 accident 了.
Thursday, May 10, 2007
好命. 好運
前天上完命理課, 很意外的知道一些從未預期的事 (或是比預期要好的事). 是種鼓勵也好, 是種補償也好, 我想 overall 我應該沒有什麼好抱怨的. 其實一路走來, 我都算是幸運的, 雖然有些事情要比一般人花上多些的時間和努力, 也是一種磨練, 讓人生的經歷更豐富. 有一天我變老了, 應該有很多不一樣的故事說給我的兒孫聽吧! (想太多...)
好不好命我不敢說, 好不好運也要看自己如何看待. 之前在紐西蘭的那幾年也許不如出國前來的順利, 不過現在想起, 倒是只有懷念而少了抱怨. 坦白說比起很多去過的國家, 它大概是生活最平淡最不熱鬧的國家, 不過也是最容易真實面對自我的地方, 人與人之間也少了那一份勾心鬥角的猜忌. 也許大家就像 kiwi 鳥一樣很泰然的過著自己的生活, 而這樣接近原始人的生活模式,也像 kiwi 鳥一樣在物競天擇的競爭環境中慢慢的消失絶種中...
老師說我適合在南方發展 (所以這代表我最好打消去歐洲找工作的念頭??), 過了今年之後運勢會變較好, 桃花也比較強 (終於有了...). 說實話, 從歐洲回來後我幾乎沒有真的碰到太背的事, 不過這跟心境也有關係. 我的問題並沒有消失, 只是看這些事情的態度變的比較豁達或樂觀些. 還有在香港, 雖然上班的時間還沒有我在紐西蘭的時候長, 總覺得沒太多的時間跟自己獨處. 也許還有些事是藏在冰山下的, 久了會浮出水面的...(怎麼有種感覺像在看鬼片?)
我還是挺相信事在人為, 再好的命跟運如果沒有後天的珍惜和努力, 上天不會就這樣白白給你的, 除非祖宗八代真的積福積到用不掉...對於眼前有的要珍惜, 對於想要有但還沒有的要努力, 對於想要有但不該有, 或時候未到時, 只能盡力, and put the rest to the destiny.
Monday, May 7, 2007
Weekend get-away
自從紐西蘭好友在4月中來港後, 我在香港的人氣指數突然上升, 連續2個周末都有朋友來訪, 歡樂的結果是每星期一早晨都帶著重重的熊貓眼上班. 不過這個周末導遊休息, 要回台灣好好補眠, 陪媽媽過母親節, 還要把之前因為腸胃炎沒吃到的小吃一併全部補回. 這是在香港工作的另一個好處, 離.家.近!
上個週末過的非常之充實緊湊, 中環, 金鐘, 銅鑼灣, 該逛該吃的應該顯少被遺漏, 從港式飲茶到避風塘炒蟹, 從魚蛋炸大腸到豆花燉奶 (我的朋友連早茶蟹黃粥餛飩麵都全部涵括). 看來來香港, 不僅皮箱要有空間, 胃也要有空間 :)
朋友走前把她們的"武林密笈" 交給我, 並交代我要好好研讀, 以期成為更道地的地陪. 我想我接下來的週末也不會無聊了, 準備要好好的 discover Hong Kong, 也許會發現在擁擠的城市外的另一種美.
Friday, May 4, 2007
愛的力量
總會有那麼一段時間會覺得特別 sentimental, 今天剛好就是. 女主人的沙龍是我常會看的部落格, 下面轉貼的文章雖然已不是第一次看, 卻在這樣的時間有種更特別的涵義.
愛的力量 (上)
愛的力量 (下)
母親節將至, 身旁的許多老朋友已從當年的單身俏女郎, 轉身一變成為她們寶貝孩子眼中偉大的母親. 曾經在人海中尋尋覓覓的期待另一半的到來, 現在也與相愛的伴侶共同邁向人生另一個不同的階段. 愛的力量, 從未讓人質疑.
它就像水一樣, 可以載舟, 也以覆舟.
曾經瀕臨滅頂過, 也好一段時間懷疑自己沒有再 (或是不敢再有) 愛人的能力. 心裡有些洞, 你覺得好像已經被補平了, 卻沒想到它只是暫時的被某些東西蓋住, 一不小心風吹來了, 覆蓋的東西被吹走了, 洞又出現了...
也許洞會永遠都在, 也許會真的被時間的沙慢慢填平, 我不曉得, 不過也已經不重要了. 重要的是要把心交在會好好照顧它的人手上, 在沒有碰到這個人的時候, 也要自己好好的照顧它.
Thursday, May 3, 2007
年紀與勇氣
年紀漸長, 好聽的說是變成熟睿智了, 白話一點是膽子變小了, 知道怕死了, 也認清現實生活並不是永遠都是那麼稱心如意的. 於是乎, 不斷的為一些你明知道該做要做想做的事情找藉口, 對該愛要愛想愛的人游移不定, 對該過想過要過的人生遲疑不前. 如果換粗俗一點的話, 就是不帶種.
我快變成這樣的人了...雖然我不是男生, 用 "帶種" 的形容詞好像有點誇張. 不過我再這樣混吃等死的混日子, 隨波逐流, 再好的光陰機會也會就這樣不見.
想起一個許久沒連絡的朋友, 和年輕時那種"明知不可為而為之" 的氣魄. 在紐西蘭認識的朋友們, 有許多還有著這樣的理想, 在香港, 也許認識的人不多, 或是因為語言溝通的困難, 總覺得生活中少了那麼點 inspiration ...這種 feeling, 還不是用錢就可以買到的.
Monday, April 30, 2007
蘭桂坊 vs. 黃大仙
週末時友人訪港, 藉機去了一些平常不會自己一個人去的地方. 頓時也覺得自己像遊客般...
兩年前來香港出差時曾造訪有名的 pub street 蘭桂坊, 不過僅是走過看看"它"到底是長什麼樣, 加上又是一個人, 沒有喝悶酒的興趣, 第一次的印象就停留在 "有很多 pub, 和很多外國人的地方".
兩年後再次造訪, 第一次的印象依舊適用, 不過深入到小巷中, 才發現人還真的是非常多. 不光是路兩旁的酒吧, 連不小的人行步道上也都擠滿了人, 甚是壯觀. 男男女女, 本地人外地人, 東方人西方人, 遊客或上班族, 似乎都在酒精的催化下融成一族. 震耳的 pop music 隨著開放的空間流洩出來, 不過當晚我們只想找個安靜的 Lounge bar 或 Jazz bar 坐下來聊聊天, 第二次的造訪在不到一小時之內結束.
有一度因為心情低落, 曾問在港的好友帶我到黃大仙廟拜拜. 不過吾友實非迷信之人, 也不希望我被影響, 最後作罷. 此次朋友來, 好奇心趨使下結伴去了黃大仙. 當日天氣很好, 人也不是太多, 我們一個香爐接著一個的上香拜拜 (總共有18個), 最後才又再回到黃大仙堂前擲籤問卦. 不過好奇心殺死貓, 解籤的結果並不是太好 (應該說是很不好). 友人的情況也不樂觀, 弄到兩人臉色平平的走出廟口. 有些事情, 也許不知道會比知道來的好.
這周又有台灣的好友來港, 蘭桂坊是不介意再去, 黃大仙的話, 我拜拜求家人平安就好, 再也別好奇去擲什麼籤桶了, 電腦玩玩即可.
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
一見鍾情
我還不是那麼幸運的幸運兒. 一見鍾情對我來說, 似乎只是可望而不可及.
自小的經驗告訴我, 通常我第一眼會喜歡的, 人家多半不會喜歡我. 我不是那種長髮及肩, 外型溫柔賢淑的斯文女生, 也不是身材火辣, 打扮亮眼的辣妹. 我只是一個再普通不過 (也許只有身高和鼻子會讓人一眼注意到), 個性有些中性化的一般女生.
不認識我的人也許會覺得我像冰山一樣難以親近, 熟識我的朋友會覺得我根本就像傻大姐. 還好外表的武裝, 常會幫我擋掉一些不必要的麻煩.
在好友面前我是會呼朋引伴, 說話不修飾直來直往的人. 不過在喜歡的人面前我頓時變龞三, 人說東我不說西, 根本跟平時有個性的我完全不同. 沒用.
除非有一天我完全豁出去了, 或不把這男生當一回事, 又或者是我認識這個人很久了, 久到可以很安心, 很自然的做我自己, 我的真實一面, 才會毫不保留的顯現出來.
真實的我, 其實也沒那麼可怕啦. 只是要克服自己的心防, 才是一件最挑戰的事.
自小的經驗告訴我, 通常我第一眼會喜歡的, 人家多半不會喜歡我. 我不是那種長髮及肩, 外型溫柔賢淑的斯文女生, 也不是身材火辣, 打扮亮眼的辣妹. 我只是一個再普通不過 (也許只有身高和鼻子會讓人一眼注意到), 個性有些中性化的一般女生.
不認識我的人也許會覺得我像冰山一樣難以親近, 熟識我的朋友會覺得我根本就像傻大姐. 還好外表的武裝, 常會幫我擋掉一些不必要的麻煩.
在好友面前我是會呼朋引伴, 說話不修飾直來直往的人. 不過在喜歡的人面前我頓時變龞三, 人說東我不說西, 根本跟平時有個性的我完全不同. 沒用.
除非有一天我完全豁出去了, 或不把這男生當一回事, 又或者是我認識這個人很久了, 久到可以很安心, 很自然的做我自己, 我的真實一面, 才會毫不保留的顯現出來.
真實的我, 其實也沒那麼可怕啦. 只是要克服自己的心防, 才是一件最挑戰的事.
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
你想做 CEO 嗎?
昨天收到定期的網路雜誌, 標題是"30 CEO大調查 奮起吧！後浪". 思緒突然回到了剛出社會的情景.
如果你早十年前問我, 我會說 "Yes". 不知從哪打來的奇怪想法, 自小就對飛來飛去的職業女強人有著莫名幻想. 總覺的穿著光鮮, 坐在 360度眺望海景的圓形頂樓辦公室是件很酷的事. 還記得出國前同事們問我, 你最想做什麼? 年輕的我毫不猶豫的把 CEO 的想法說了出來, 卻換來同事們的勸告, "做 CEO 的老婆可能比較快吧!"
十年後, 如果你再問我, 我的答案會是, "我寧願做我自己生命的主宰, 而不想在一輩子爬 corporate ladder 到頂後被人一腳踢下來". 中年失業, 感覺一定不會太好.
做 CEO, 看似光鮮, 呼風喚雨, 不過再如何的高薪, 如何的高權位, 最終還是董事會的一個棋. 棋下壞了, 公司不賺錢了, 國王還是會被換走的. 底下的兵還是要打仗, 國家還是要運行. 這就是 corporate, 真實的人生.
不只是 CEO, 在公司的每一個職位都一樣. 我們都是棋, 在有限的棋盤上做看似無限, 卻是有限的格局. 挺悲涼的.
不過也許是因為公司不大, 或我們的管理者還沒有讓我有打從心底的英雄崇拜, CEO 對我而言, 也就是一個 title, 一個跟你我一樣會吃喝拉撒睡的平凡人. 他們也會犯錯, 也有不足的時候, 也有不喜歡做事擔責任拿中層經理墊背的時候. 沒有需要特別崇拜, 因為在得到名利的同時, CEO 要付出的是更多的時間, 更多的精力, 更多的責任, 更大的風險. 世界是公平的, no pain no gain.
做不做 CEO 無所謂, 重要的是你是否在每一件事中學習和累積到經驗, 你是否在公司內或公司外都有不可被替代的資產, 你是否可以帶領團隊達到目標, 將有限的資源做到最大的利用. 我想當一切都水到渠成時, 棋盤也就自然打開了.
Monday, April 23, 2007
Finding the problem
Have the following email conversation with a friend today...
A: Over the past few days I didn’t have good sleep…胡思亂想...don’t think I’ve made great progress here and feel quite frustrated…
B: i totally understand, fate is controlling everything .. human can do minor adjustment but for the frame and ultimate outcome, we are all programmed. just enjoy everyday ... if everyday you can finish your work then you can sleep well and for your future, you are the only one who understand yourself, people around you cannot help you much, all they can do is support your decision.
dont worry, thinking is okay but worry will harm your body, so relax and enjoy everyday
A: Thanks for listening and sharing. Work at least it’s something doable, but for some other things in my life, the decision is not that easy to made if involving people I care about. Maybe I shall give up soon so won’t be stuck in the small cubic, but don’t know whether that really solves the problem or I just pretend the problem doesn’t exit anymore?
B: take it easy, human is just too tiny. be yourself and people with similar characteristics will appear.
Last Friday was the worse night, don't know it's because of the alcohol or because of the mind, was lying on bed for hours and can't fall asleep. I started questioning myself whether it's a right decision to remain in Hong Kong, or shall I return to NZ, or go back to Taiwan? Shall I stay in the same company, or change to another industry, or start my own business? Shall I fall for the same person, or move on if he doesn't fall for me in the same way? A lot of questions, all emerged at that point of time.
It might be the reason that I don't have the sense of belonging to places I have been so far, or I just got too many choices that I am confused to make the decision, or I am still trying to figuring out what ultimately I want out from my life. Situation is, I can't escape anymore but need to fix those problems. NOW.
But friend does point out one important thing - be myself. Yes be myself. Every time when I start liking someone, I prone to be the person whom I think the other person might like, but forget about my own needs. Although the sacrifice tendency had been greatly reduced due to the bad experience happened in the past, it still important to be a real happy me, not a pretended-happy me.
A: Over the past few days I didn’t have good sleep…胡思亂想...don’t think I’ve made great progress here and feel quite frustrated…
B: i totally understand, fate is controlling everything .. human can do minor adjustment but for the frame and ultimate outcome, we are all programmed. just enjoy everyday ... if everyday you can finish your work then you can sleep well and for your future, you are the only one who understand yourself, people around you cannot help you much, all they can do is support your decision.
dont worry, thinking is okay but worry will harm your body, so relax and enjoy everyday
A: Thanks for listening and sharing. Work at least it’s something doable, but for some other things in my life, the decision is not that easy to made if involving people I care about. Maybe I shall give up soon so won’t be stuck in the small cubic, but don’t know whether that really solves the problem or I just pretend the problem doesn’t exit anymore?
B: take it easy, human is just too tiny. be yourself and people with similar characteristics will appear.
Last Friday was the worse night, don't know it's because of the alcohol or because of the mind, was lying on bed for hours and can't fall asleep. I started questioning myself whether it's a right decision to remain in Hong Kong, or shall I return to NZ, or go back to Taiwan? Shall I stay in the same company, or change to another industry, or start my own business? Shall I fall for the same person, or move on if he doesn't fall for me in the same way? A lot of questions, all emerged at that point of time.
It might be the reason that I don't have the sense of belonging to places I have been so far, or I just got too many choices that I am confused to make the decision, or I am still trying to figuring out what ultimately I want out from my life. Situation is, I can't escape anymore but need to fix those problems. NOW.
But friend does point out one important thing - be myself. Yes be myself. Every time when I start liking someone, I prone to be the person whom I think the other person might like, but forget about my own needs. Although the sacrifice tendency had been greatly reduced due to the bad experience happened in the past, it still important to be a real happy me, not a pretended-happy me.
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Farewell to today
Ok, nothing fresh today. The morning is still busy, outstanding items on the project list are still outstanding. Had a harsh (not to heated) argument/discussion with our MD about the way how I led the project. I was just listening, don't want to debate any further so that to cut the conversation short to be able to back to what I was doing. I have no intention at all to give people hard time, but when some people are not doing their work, it will cause the delay to all the other people involved in the project. My job is simply to ensure the gap won't be maximised but minimised.
Anyway, stop from here. It's already full of shits, don't want to put anymore into that.
Say farewell to the day and get ready for tomorrow. Complain won't be able to change anything at all but only the action does. I know everyone is working hard on this and hopefully the launch can be successful.
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
生活二三事
昨天一開始上班就像打仗似的, 不停的電話, 不斷的email, 又得在6 點準時離開辦公室去荃灣上課. 坐在MTR上, 腦中是一片空白. 只是眼巴巴的看著螢幕上閃爍不同的站名, 希望不會在第一天上課時遲到.
課是上的不錯, 我是唯一一個講普通話的"普通"人, 盡力的將老師所講的用我有限的小腦容量去理解. 朋友很好心的問我是否聽的懂, 我猜是還好吧....不過我是真的要好好加強我的廣東話, 不然老是當在旁傻笑的人也是有點好笑.
新的產品月底要發佈, 我現在一個禮拜要上兩堂課, 越想越覺得時間會不夠用, 壓力越大就越會想看或寫 Blog, 很奇怪的邏輯. 有時看看寫寫, 雖然時間不會多出來, 倒覺得心情平靜許多. 像是 mental yoga, 心靈瑜珈.
有意思的是, 有些時候你根本不認識這些寫 Blog的人, 卻透過網路的這個平台看到許多種不同的生活型態和人生觀. 也許這也是 blog 迷人處之一吧.
Friday, April 13, 2007
覆水難收的事
收到一個朋友轉寄的郵件, 標題是"世上有4 種東西覆水難收".
那4 種東西分別是:
1. 拋出去的石頭
2. 講了出口的言語
3. 錯失了的機會
4. 逝去了的時光
我想, 我還會加上:
5. 潑出去的水
6. 失去的親人, 至愛和朋友
7. 付出的情感
8. 新出生的生命
曾經看過一個啤酒廣告, slogan 是 love, like you never love before; sing, like you never sing before; dance, like you never dance before....我不記得原本的全文, 可是記得廣告的意思是希望你把握當下, 盡情享受現在 (和賣啤酒的很吻合).
我常會想, 如果有一天不幸在飛機罹難的那一霎那, 我會後悔什麼? 除了後悔坐上這架飛機外, 我希望我沒有任何對我的人生的 regret. Present (現在), is the present (禮物) for life.
Friday the 13th
Just realised that today is Friday 13th April, so called black Friday.
Met up with an old friend from NZ last night and enjoyed a great time. Nothing dramatic happens so far and my work schedule seems not that busy today - apart from a meeting later and a phone call to follow up a contract. The rest shall not be hard to deal with.
It's just interesting to record a black Friday. But you never know what will happen till the day ends.
Thursday, April 12, 2007
是非之年
有一種不詳的預感, 今年將是多事之秋, 工作忙碌不說, 人事的是非也會增多.
香港公司是僅次於紐西蘭公司員工人數最多的分公司, 不只在部門分佈上有凌駕之上的趨勢, 大頭目 (O字輩人物)也是逐漸向此靠攏. 若官多事多倒還相安無事, 若官多事少又想爭功, 那麻煩可就不小了.
從前在紐西蘭從未感受到的人事複雜壓力, 到香港來之後一一浮現了. 我的個性直, 難保有一天不會惹禍上身. 雖然有尚方寶劍護著, 不過暗箭難防, 著實要小心.
老闆昨天說我早該從他那兒畢業了. 一年中見不到幾次面, 碰到事時只能自己想辦法處理. 這是一個很好的磨練機會, 不過一不小心也是有可能成為砲灰. 是成是敗, 不只是運氣, 也是智慧. Good luck.
春暖乍寒時
回港的這兩天都睡的很好, 也許是因為換新被套的關係, 也許是因為心中沒牽掛的關係, 也許是因為累, 或者只是運氣好. 總之, 沒有惡夢, 沒有翻來覆去的夜晚, 早晨起來也有精神, 是件好事.
放了假回來, 告訴自己要好好打理自己, 不要再有黑眼圈, 不要再有泛黃的面色, 不有再有冒油的鼻頭, 不要再有沒有精神的自己. 如果自己都不喜歡在鏡子前看到自己了, 還有誰會看上你? 那只是癡人說夢話, 發白日夢而已.
因為腸胃炎而隨帶的 Detox, 沒想到不只對身體, 同時也對心理. 我有我自己的存在价值, 同時也不放棄的相信有一天可以碰到一個相信我有這樣价值的人. 不須斤斤計較, 不必討價還價. 這把在心中的天平, 在該平衡的時候, 會找到平衡點的.
春暖乍寒時, 百花齊放時, 像一個潘朵拉的盒子, 是把精靈放出來的時候了.
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
期待, 也是一種幸福
如果只看標題, 不知情的人一定會覺得我戀愛了 ^^ 哈!再等一段時間吧!
會這樣寫, 是一個NZ的好友要來香港, 明天就到了. 想到可以一起出去吃飯, 逛街, 看電影, 不知不覺中心情也愉悅了起來. 常做獨行俠的我, 現在不知怎麼的變成很喜歡看到熟悉的人, 大概是老了...
香港在這一點就比 NZ 好, 比較多的可能性朋友會在此轉機或停留. 期待, 變成在生活中的一種小小的驚奇和幸福.
返台記
短短5天的復活節假期, 原先還興致沖沖的覺得可以在台北做一些事, 看一些老朋友. 不過 "計劃趕不上變化", 返台的第一天就又得了腸胃型感冒, 上吐下瀉外加打針吊點滴, 真的夠了....3次回台得2次腸胃型感冒, 我是水土不服還是風水不合啊? 減肥也不是這樣減的....
唉, 抱怨歸抱怨, 自己的抵抗力弱也不能怪誰. 有朋友說就當是在做 Detox (排毒), 這樣一來我的身體正在進行 reborn (再生). 也是有好處的, 起碼我最近在飲食上會控制些, 也儘量不晚睡, 將身體照顧好再說.
昨天搭早班的泰航回香港, 又被升等到商務艙 (很巧合的是, 上次我得腸胃炎, 回來的時候也被升等 ^^). 吃是吃不多, 倒是可以好好的睡一下. 很少在白天的時後抵港, 突然發現靠機場的香港也是很漂亮的, 有山有水, 人也不是太多. 不過再回到港島, 城市的生活又回來了...
髮型換了, 休息也休息夠了. 雖然沒有見到所有想見的朋友, 但跟高中老友共聚的清粥小菜, 也為這個看似不幸的假期, 畫上一個幸福的句點. 一家人的團聚, 即使在煙雨濛濛的金山, 吃什麼也都特別有味道.
雖然只是1個多小時的飛行航程, 台北與香港, 看似近又似遠.
Tuesday, April 3, 2007
轉念
人的意念力量其實是蠻驚人的. 你可以覺得自己很幸福, 你也可以自己覺得很不幸. 你可以覺得好,你也可以覺得壞的不得了. 你可以選擇每天快樂的過, 也可以選擇每天怨天尤人. 於是, 好與不好, 幸與不幸, 快樂與不快樂, 就在一念之間. 有些時候, 問題不在問題身上, 而是在看問題的態度上.
也不知道為什麼寫到這個話題. 大概是覺得自己最近抱怨太多, 尤其在一些支微末節的小細節上. 比起很多人, 我應該是要知足的. 我豈碼還有選擇的權利, 很多人也許連能選什麼都不可以. 在比較中, 我看到了自己的自私, 自己的渺小, 還有自己的幸福.
告訴自己, 收拾起那些負面的情緒吧. 即使雨再如何下, 總會有天晴的一天. 彩虹出來了, 陽光也不遠了.
Monday, April 2, 2007
大雨特報
今明兩天的天氣都不會太好, 看來這個Easter是得準備泡在水中了.古人有云:清明時節雨紛紛, 路上行人欲斷魂...雨是有, 斷魂這檔事就看個案而定了. 不過接連的雨天的確不會讓人太好受, 尤其當面對一個難得的長假期.
我呢?斷魂是有些嚴重, 不過傷心是傷定了.
此次回台, 一方面是外婆的祭日, 要上山看外婆. 即使已事隔多年, 這種失親的痛並不會隨著時間而真的淡化. 我曾經有幾年刻意不在過年時回台灣, 怕的是想起外婆在時家中熱鬧的情景, 也怕再回到國外那種必須要從很多人再變到適應一個人的孤獨. 是逃避, 我想是的. 因為知道無法承受這樣的痛.
另一方面, 我知道我也是因為感情上無法突破的胡同而選擇回去台灣散心. 是另一種逃避, 我想也是的. 沒有期待, 就不會有因期待而生的失落. 起碼有朋友, 有家人, 比較不容易胡思亂想. 是一個結束, 也希望是個新的開始. 4 月中後我的廣東話課程就要開始了, 希望能多認識些像我一樣在香港的異地人, 讓平淡的工作生活有些色彩. 語言通了之後, 能做的事情也會比較多了.
明天之後, 我就消失在香港了......
Friday, March 30, 2007
TGIF
Thanks God, it's Friday! But before saying that, there are loads of things to be done before having a well deserved Friday and weekend.
For me, Monday & Friday possibly are the two most busiest days during the working week. Monday, well expected as it's the beginning of the week, but why Friday when most people are enjoying their office drinks and get off work early than usual? I don't know neither.
The Friday before long weekend/public holiday is the most scary one, particularlly when I am doing any sort of the projects. Just like now. You know the lawyer is going to be off, the staff is going to take the leave, everyone's mind is on how to plan an overseas trip.... imaging dressing up to have a relaxed Friday night but ending up working OT in the office, it's never appeared strange to me, and unfortunately, quite often...
I do want to end this kind of tragedy and go out seeing a good movie or catch up with good friends, at least for today. A prefect way to finish a busy week and recharge for the next one. Fingure cross.
Remark: This article was posted in the morning and right now at 8:42pm Hong Kong time, I am still in the office....the last hope I could have is to to leave before 9:30 so I can go home watching the TV drama. Damn...
Thursday, March 29, 2007
尋找愛情
常有些朋友會問我, 我想要找什麼樣的男朋友或老公? 說實話, 我也沒真的仔細想過. 一直以來總覺得, 即使洋洋灑灑列了一堆條件, 常到頭來跟的是一個完全沒半樣符合的人在一起. 感情這事, 不可以太鐵齒. 碰到了, 想躲都躲不掉; 沒碰到, 想找也找不著.
如果真要我想, 也許可以硬擠些什麼來著....
1. 要是男的, straight guy I mean. 對Bi 我是會好奇, 不過還沒開放到可以接受成伴侶的程度.
2. 會說中文, 中英文都會就更好, 如果曾經在國外工作或生活過的就更難得了! 會說中文, 跟家人溝通就沒問題; 會說英文, 可以跟我國外的一些好友交流而不感無聊; 曾經在國外待過, 如果有一天真的不在亞洲待的時候, 落差不會太大. 起碼我是這樣猜的.
3. 不可以花心. 這似乎來說是很高的要求, 不過我真的受夠了提心吊膽的日子. 抓賊的日子我不想再過了, 喜歡腳踏幾條船不關我的事, 因為我永遠不會想當其中的一條.
4. 不 show off, 不說大話, 腳踏實地的認真男人. 不管男生或女生, 我都欣賞低調但做事沉穩認真的人. 我的死脾氣是吃軟不吃硬. 喜歡吹牛, 隨你, 只是踢到鐵扳時別喊疼.
5. 不是以＂當一天和尚敲一天鐘＂的悲觀心情來看待人生. 我算對我的人生還有期待和熱情, 所以也希望找個不會相差太遠的人一起過我的下半輩子.
6. 接受＂我就是我＂的事實 (很不幸的...) 而不是 "被改變的我＂. 人活到這把年紀, 早該可以體認到 "牛牽到北京還是牛＂的殘酷現實. 我能被改變的彈性不算小, 尤其是為了所愛的人. 不過能活的更輕鬆, 更快樂, 為什麼要把一個人改變到連他/她自己都不認識自己呢?
7. 愛情或家, 是兩個人共有的, 不是一個人的全部責任, 也不是另一個人的全部負擔. 我佩服傳統中國婦女的美德, 不過更希望能看到另外一半也珍惜他所擁有的, 願意去用心經營, 而不是視所有為理所當然.
8. 人生有高潮也有低潮. 在高潮時不驕傲, 在低潮時也不氣餒. 從哪裡跌倒, 就從哪裡爬起來. 有跌倒的智慧, 我相信就有爬起的勇氣. 最怕的就是一跌不起.
八點, 應該也包含了差不多 80% 了吧, 剩下的就是看不看的順眼, 有沒有化學反應等很 KIMOGI的事了. 不過說歸說, 這還真的是 case by case 的情況. 另外, 即使有一天碰到了一個完全符合的人, 甚至到 perfect 的地步, 不過對方不喜歡你, 或你不符合他的標準, 還不是白搭. 哎, 這就是愛情, 沒有標準答案, 對了就愛了的愛情.
太陽出來了
久違不見的陽光, 這幾天在香港慢慢的露出來了. 今年的夏天, 想必可能也會早到了. 這陣子的溫度, 常都是在25 度上下, 跟紐西蘭的夏天沒太大區別, 只是少了熾熱的陽光, 和有破洞的臭氧層 :)
去年第一次在出國之後在夏天回台灣, 重感冒加上對氣候的不適應, 讓我對亞洲的夏天有了深刻的體驗. 今年的夏天, 雖然有可能可以回到南半球避暑, 不過大半的時間應該會是在香港. 想到要在 30 幾度的高溫擠地鐵, 外出吃飯活動等, 還沒想就先流汗了. 不過可以看到陽光, 還是比每天都看到灰灰的天空, 來的振奮多了.
腦中突然閃過 Sydney的陽光, Auckland 的海灘, 和那年我在 Singapore 過的夏天. 還有, 我去年在歐洲度過的夏天. 原來, 有許多美好的記憶是跟夏天連在一起的. 希望今年在香港的夏天, 除了熱之外, 也有一個對新地方的美好回憶.
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Destiny Trick
Initially I was thinking if there's no communication between us from now on until the Easter passes, everything might be gradually back to the original state and I shall also learn to withdraw myself from the emotional attachment and treat the relationship simply as a friendship. Trick is, just at the point that I am prepared to give up, something happens to stir up the water. Just like what happened last night.
I wasn't expecting any calls as I have been acting quietly, and also negatively these days. However at the usual time, the mobile rang. We still talked like usual, and even longer. I guess it's a small trick played by the desitny to challenge my determination, but can't deny that it does warm up the heart a bit. Though in reality, the talk might not turn your theory around too much but just delay my time of facing the truth, still thanks for thinking of me as a friend.
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
學習放下
老闆回來香港後, 忙碌的生活又開始了. 不過也不能說完全不好, 起碼沖淡了一些思念的傷. 從未開始, 又何來結束呢? 原來自始至終只是自己在胡思亂想, 世界一樣在運轉, 每個人的生活還是同樣的過.
第一次聽到"混血兒"的理論, 只是聽聽, 沒多做猜想. 第二次聽, 開始有了些反應, 直覺上已覺得會有隔閡. 第三次再聽到時, 覺得那已是善意的回絕. 難過, 也改變不了什麼.
我想我還會再持續一段時間, 學習放下, 也學習如何重新開始.
原先想 Easter 時留在香港, 不過還是訂了票回去台灣. 不敢奢想會有任何奇蹟發生, 只是覺得一個人在香港過 Easter, 跟一個人的 Christmas 是一樣的孤寂. 我只想回家散散心.
第一次聽到"混血兒"的理論, 只是聽聽, 沒多做猜想. 第二次聽, 開始有了些反應, 直覺上已覺得會有隔閡. 第三次再聽到時, 覺得那已是善意的回絕. 難過, 也改變不了什麼.
我想我還會再持續一段時間, 學習放下, 也學習如何重新開始.
原先想 Easter 時留在香港, 不過還是訂了票回去台灣. 不敢奢想會有任何奇蹟發生, 只是覺得一個人在香港過 Easter, 跟一個人的 Christmas 是一樣的孤寂. 我只想回家散散心.
Thursday, March 22, 2007
15分鐘的地鐵
每天早上15分鐘到中環的地鐵, 是一個觀察香港人生活動態的好方式. 不過, 真的很擠, 人也真不是普通的少...像我這樣腦袋空空, 閒閒無事擠地鐵的乘客, 比例不多. 多數的本地人, 會有以下的行為:
1. 看報
2. 講手機或打短信
3. 打遊戲機
4. 跟男/ 女朋友相偎一起說情話
5. 聽 Ipod 或 MP3
6. 睡覺 (真的是有人閉上眼睛的)
7. 看書
說這是一個時間一點都不會被浪費的城市, never stop, 很貼切.
不過我可能也因為不坐大眾運輸系統有一段時間了, 對於這樣的現象還感到很新鮮. 對於每天都通勤的上班族, 學生, 或任何有需要的人, 這是一個必須被接受, 也要去適應的生活模式.
以前在紐西蘭工作時, 我每天早上必須得要在高速公路上塞將近一個鐘頭才會到市區. 每天在車上必做的事, 包括: 吃早餐, 聽廣播, 冥想 (將一天要做的事先沙盤推練一下), 有時更離譜的事是: 化妝 (如果真的塞車塞的很厲害). 曾經想過搬到市區住, 不過我倒還滿享受這一個小時屬於我自己的時間 - 沒有任何外力的 distraction, 除了要專心開車外. 我有一個很特別的理論, 如果你一大早就過的很 shity, the rest of the day would be shity as well.
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
一百個我
1. 有一個不像中國南方人的長相和身高
2. 濃眉, 尖鼻, 長眼睛
3. 不是大餅臉, 有下巴但又不是小瓜子臉
4. 牙齒還算整齊, 不用去做矯正
5. 從小學六年級之後頭髮突然變捲, 從此只能靠離子燙來追求直髮的夢想 >.<
6. 目前短髮, 應該還會維持一段時間
7. 不笑的時候看起來很嚴肅, 但私底下有時很搞笑
8. 喜歡陽光
9. 也喜歡有陽光般笑容的男生
10. 不喜歡在人身上用心機, 也不喜歡有心機的人
11. 不喜歡被叫工作狂, 但一定會把該做的事做完
12. 目前還是 completely single¸還在尋找 Mr. Right
13. 還算樂觀
14. 相信只要肯做, 沒有不可能的事 (所以在感情上跌的很慘)
15. 印象最深的一句話, Life will find its way, from 侏儸紀公園
16. 最常做的職業是學藝股長
17. 曾經最想念服裝設計, 室內設計或建築
18. 很意外的在現在的行業上班,有機會一定轉行
19. 想要開一間可以逛街逛的很舒服的 Shopping mall (但可能生意會不好, 因為舒服意味著人不多...)
20. 逛街是一項休閒運動
21. 會一個人逛街, 吃飯, 看電影, 上課, 開車亂晃
22. 怕高, 怕鬼, 最討厭聽/看鬼故事
23. 有時覺得自己像長不大的孩子, 但又長的很老成
24. 喜歡看動畫片
25. 討厭血腥和暴力
26. 一生只念過 3 個學校, 中間有一個念了 14 年
27. 因為大家印象太深刻 (一個學校念了 14 年), 在大一被選做班代
28. 有做 party animal 的 potential, 但已經金盆洗手 ...收山了..
29. 喜歡和不同國籍的人認識和工作
30. 第一次自助旅行去了歐洲, 一次去了兩個月
31. 老媽說我是拼命三郎 – 唸書拼命, 工作拼命, 連玩也很拼命
32. 30歲之前會在某些事上很鑽牛角尖, 現在想開了, 要對自己好點, 對人生也豁達些
33. 到養了第一隻狗”查理”後才知道有照顧小動物的能力...很想念他...
34. 做菜是一個減壓的方式. 喜歡做給喜歡的人吃 (但要自備胃藥 ^^)
35. 我是會做家事的...(不知道為什麼多數人都覺得我不像是)
36. 喜歡嘗試不一樣的美食, 很少有同一家餐廳去超過 3 次以上, 除非真的很喜歡
37. 愛吃 dessert, 但對零食倒還好
38. 到南半球後完全轉性, 從 city girl 變成會開始運動
39. 學過游泳,溜冰,網球,擊劍,保齡球,直排輪,冰刀,登山腳踏車,撞球,滑雪,空手道,開船, 高爾夫. 都不是專家, 但樂意去嘗試.
40. 還沒學潛水的原因是因為怕魚...在克服中
41. 對多數的事情學習和轉換能力都算快, 但對感情就不是...
42. 中文名字很特別, 英文則一般般
43. 喜歡在不同地方工作和旅行, 不過慢慢有想定在一個地方的念頭
44. 希望有一間在海邊的房子
45. 和一台可以載很多人的有型 SUV (X5 是不錯的選擇)
46. 如果路上沒有車, 會飆的很快
47. 喜歡舒服的自然風
48. 內心沒有外表看起來堅強, 會哭, 也會受傷
49. 知道自己跟可愛無緣, 不會強裝可愛
50. 周圍的朋友都有自己的個性
51. 不太會八卦, 現在卻生活在一個到處都有八卦的地方.
52. 有時會突然覺得自己很幸福
53. 要在每一個階段把該活的人生活的好, 活的沒有遺憾
54. 事事無常, 計畫永遠趕不上變化
55. 因為有過瘋狂, 輕狂, 癡狂, 才知道平淡也有平淡的幸福
56. 覺得自己的 EQ 還算高, 但被欺負時 (很生氣很生氣的時候) 一定不會當沒事發生
57. 很少對任何事上癮, 不想有被控制的感覺
58. 不抽煙, 喝少少酒, 不吸毒, 很少喝咖啡和茶 (因為會睡不著, 現在連可樂都不太喝)
59. 偶爾也喜歡跳舞搖搖很high 的感覺, 不過要跟對味的人跳
60. 心情不好時會鬧失蹤
61. 最想學的樂器是薩克斯風
62. 說到的話一定盡力做到, 不喜歡 over promise
63. 超討厭不守誠信,愛說大話的人
64. 欣賞做事認真, 低調但有自己想法的人
65. 想讓自己變的 sophisticated 點, 但好像很不容易
66. 喜歡買/穿dress (evening dress, one piece dress, party dress..etc), 覺得自己可以變的比較性感美麗 ^^
67. 不大常化妝, 除非開會或必要場合
68. 想讓自己的皮膚變更好些, 這樣就不必常擦粉
69. 不喜歡太複雜的保養品
70. 也不想把人, 事, 物弄的太複雜
71. 喜歡簡單, 但有設計感的物品
72. 走歐美路線, 不哈日也不哈韓
73. 覺得盲目追求潮流是很不智的行為, 沒有偶像崇拜的傾向
74. 受到父母的遺傳,身上有一半藝術家和一半商人的粽合
75. 從不相信無奸不成商, 試圖打破
76. 長期流浪在外,常讓人覺得我很獨立...但事實上我也不想變這樣
77. 覺得有能力去幫助和關心人是很好的事.施比受更有福
78. 不大會表達對家人的感情, 很多時候只會用物質的方法去表達關心
79. 不是會撒嬌的人, 正在努力學
80. 常覺得爸媽把我和我弟生錯性別...
81. 不會無理取鬧, 但要說服我一定要有合理原因
82. 生命很可貴, 要做的事有很多, 所以從沒想過要自殺 (也因為怕高又怕痛)
83. 當老大和管人管久了, 個性有些 bossy, 也有主見, 正在改中...
84. 出國之前是爛好人, 現在學會選擇
85. 可以享受一個人的時候, 也可以很愛熱鬧. 動靜皆宜.
86. 適應能力還算強, 有點像”小強”...
87. 喜歡大衣櫃和大書桌, 還有一片可以透進很多陽光的窗
88. PDA 很方便, 但是還是喜歡買記事本和手寫的感覺
89. 中文字寫的不算醜, 但有逐漸變醜的趨向 (因為打字太多)
90. 會說中文,英文, 一點點的法文.現在正在努力學廣東話.
91. 不是說謊高手, 也不想做
92. 很多中性色彩(黑,灰,白,米,咖啡)的衣服, 在試著買多一點的顏色
93. 在台灣,新加坡,紐西蘭,澳洲,加拿大,香港工作過;在亞洲,大洋洲,美洲,歐洲旅遊過,還有很多國家等著跟以後的另一半一起去
94. 曾經在紐約 Time Square 等 10 多個小時就為了跨千禧年10秒的倒數 (老爸覺得我瘋了, 但一千年只有一次耶!)
95. 希望能跟最愛的人攜手白頭
96. 喜歡 Yacht, 也享受在海上航行的感覺
97. 如果沒找到更適合的地方,會回紐西蘭過我的退休生活
98. 最近迷上寫 Blog
99. 在經歷過前段感情的低潮,了解到舊的不去,新的不來. 已經過去的,做過的,是讓你在新的一段感情中絶對不要再犯的
100. 往前看. 大功告成!
2. 濃眉, 尖鼻, 長眼睛
3. 不是大餅臉, 有下巴但又不是小瓜子臉
4. 牙齒還算整齊, 不用去做矯正
5. 從小學六年級之後頭髮突然變捲, 從此只能靠離子燙來追求直髮的夢想 >.<
6. 目前短髮, 應該還會維持一段時間
7. 不笑的時候看起來很嚴肅, 但私底下有時很搞笑
8. 喜歡陽光
9. 也喜歡有陽光般笑容的男生
10. 不喜歡在人身上用心機, 也不喜歡有心機的人
11. 不喜歡被叫工作狂, 但一定會把該做的事做完
12. 目前還是 completely single¸還在尋找 Mr. Right
13. 還算樂觀
14. 相信只要肯做, 沒有不可能的事 (所以在感情上跌的很慘)
15. 印象最深的一句話, Life will find its way, from 侏儸紀公園
16. 最常做的職業是學藝股長
17. 曾經最想念服裝設計, 室內設計或建築
18. 很意外的在現在的行業上班,有機會一定轉行
19. 想要開一間可以逛街逛的很舒服的 Shopping mall (但可能生意會不好, 因為舒服意味著人不多...)
20. 逛街是一項休閒運動
21. 會一個人逛街, 吃飯, 看電影, 上課, 開車亂晃
22. 怕高, 怕鬼, 最討厭聽/看鬼故事
23. 有時覺得自己像長不大的孩子, 但又長的很老成
24. 喜歡看動畫片
25. 討厭血腥和暴力
26. 一生只念過 3 個學校, 中間有一個念了 14 年
27. 因為大家印象太深刻 (一個學校念了 14 年), 在大一被選做班代
28. 有做 party animal 的 potential, 但已經金盆洗手 ...收山了..
29. 喜歡和不同國籍的人認識和工作
30. 第一次自助旅行去了歐洲, 一次去了兩個月
31. 老媽說我是拼命三郎 – 唸書拼命, 工作拼命, 連玩也很拼命
32. 30歲之前會在某些事上很鑽牛角尖, 現在想開了, 要對自己好點, 對人生也豁達些
33. 到養了第一隻狗”查理”後才知道有照顧小動物的能力...很想念他...
34. 做菜是一個減壓的方式. 喜歡做給喜歡的人吃 (但要自備胃藥 ^^)
35. 我是會做家事的...(不知道為什麼多數人都覺得我不像是)
36. 喜歡嘗試不一樣的美食, 很少有同一家餐廳去超過 3 次以上, 除非真的很喜歡
37. 愛吃 dessert, 但對零食倒還好
38. 到南半球後完全轉性, 從 city girl 變成會開始運動
39. 學過游泳,溜冰,網球,擊劍,保齡球,直排輪,冰刀,登山腳踏車,撞球,滑雪,空手道,開船, 高爾夫. 都不是專家, 但樂意去嘗試.
40. 還沒學潛水的原因是因為怕魚...在克服中
41. 對多數的事情學習和轉換能力都算快, 但對感情就不是...
42. 中文名字很特別, 英文則一般般
43. 喜歡在不同地方工作和旅行, 不過慢慢有想定在一個地方的念頭
44. 希望有一間在海邊的房子
45. 和一台可以載很多人的有型 SUV (X5 是不錯的選擇)
46. 如果路上沒有車, 會飆的很快
47. 喜歡舒服的自然風
48. 內心沒有外表看起來堅強, 會哭, 也會受傷
49. 知道自己跟可愛無緣, 不會強裝可愛
50. 周圍的朋友都有自己的個性
51. 不太會八卦, 現在卻生活在一個到處都有八卦的地方.
52. 有時會突然覺得自己很幸福
53. 要在每一個階段把該活的人生活的好, 活的沒有遺憾
54. 事事無常, 計畫永遠趕不上變化
55. 因為有過瘋狂, 輕狂, 癡狂, 才知道平淡也有平淡的幸福
56. 覺得自己的 EQ 還算高, 但被欺負時 (很生氣很生氣的時候) 一定不會當沒事發生
57. 很少對任何事上癮, 不想有被控制的感覺
58. 不抽煙, 喝少少酒, 不吸毒, 很少喝咖啡和茶 (因為會睡不著, 現在連可樂都不太喝)
59. 偶爾也喜歡跳舞搖搖很high 的感覺, 不過要跟對味的人跳
60. 心情不好時會鬧失蹤
61. 最想學的樂器是薩克斯風
62. 說到的話一定盡力做到, 不喜歡 over promise
63. 超討厭不守誠信,愛說大話的人
64. 欣賞做事認真, 低調但有自己想法的人
65. 想讓自己變的 sophisticated 點, 但好像很不容易
66. 喜歡買/穿dress (evening dress, one piece dress, party dress..etc), 覺得自己可以變的比較性感美麗 ^^
67. 不大常化妝, 除非開會或必要場合
68. 想讓自己的皮膚變更好些, 這樣就不必常擦粉
69. 不喜歡太複雜的保養品
70. 也不想把人, 事, 物弄的太複雜
71. 喜歡簡單, 但有設計感的物品
72. 走歐美路線, 不哈日也不哈韓
73. 覺得盲目追求潮流是很不智的行為, 沒有偶像崇拜的傾向
74. 受到父母的遺傳,身上有一半藝術家和一半商人的粽合
75. 從不相信無奸不成商, 試圖打破
76. 長期流浪在外,常讓人覺得我很獨立...但事實上我也不想變這樣
77. 覺得有能力去幫助和關心人是很好的事.施比受更有福
78. 不大會表達對家人的感情, 很多時候只會用物質的方法去表達關心
79. 不是會撒嬌的人, 正在努力學
80. 常覺得爸媽把我和我弟生錯性別...
81. 不會無理取鬧, 但要說服我一定要有合理原因
82. 生命很可貴, 要做的事有很多, 所以從沒想過要自殺 (也因為怕高又怕痛)
83. 當老大和管人管久了, 個性有些 bossy, 也有主見, 正在改中...
84. 出國之前是爛好人, 現在學會選擇
85. 可以享受一個人的時候, 也可以很愛熱鬧. 動靜皆宜.
86. 適應能力還算強, 有點像”小強”...
87. 喜歡大衣櫃和大書桌, 還有一片可以透進很多陽光的窗
88. PDA 很方便, 但是還是喜歡買記事本和手寫的感覺
89. 中文字寫的不算醜, 但有逐漸變醜的趨向 (因為打字太多)
90. 會說中文,英文, 一點點的法文.現在正在努力學廣東話.
91. 不是說謊高手, 也不想做
92. 很多中性色彩(黑,灰,白,米,咖啡)的衣服, 在試著買多一點的顏色
93. 在台灣,新加坡,紐西蘭,澳洲,加拿大,香港工作過;在亞洲,大洋洲,美洲,歐洲旅遊過,還有很多國家等著跟以後的另一半一起去
94. 曾經在紐約 Time Square 等 10 多個小時就為了跨千禧年10秒的倒數 (老爸覺得我瘋了, 但一千年只有一次耶!)
95. 希望能跟最愛的人攜手白頭
96. 喜歡 Yacht, 也享受在海上航行的感覺
97. 如果沒找到更適合的地方,會回紐西蘭過我的退休生活
98. 最近迷上寫 Blog
99. 在經歷過前段感情的低潮,了解到舊的不去,新的不來. 已經過去的,做過的,是讓你在新的一段感情中絶對不要再犯的
100. 往前看. 大功告成!
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
在算與不算之間
這個問題也著實讓我想了很久, 到現在我還是一點頭緒也沒有.
沒錯, 每個人生下來都有一本無字天書, 也許在冥冥之中指導你人生的方向. 你可以選擇去提早知道, 以便做準備; 也可以"假裝"不知道, 用自己的方法把天書填滿, 到蓋棺時才論定. 我不是不相信算命, 只是很害怕自己不去受到影響. 就像星座一樣, 你可能根本不知道原來這個星座會有這樣的屬性, 但看久了聽久了, 你慢慢相信了, 也在無形之中塑造成這樣的個性.
每個人都會想要聽到好的, 但聽到不好的要怎麼辦? 算命的不準怎麼辦? 雖然說像是命運的健康檢查, 不過這些儀器都沒有經過 ISO 認證, 算的人也沒有證書, 我們像是待宰羔羊, 完全沒有任何掌控權.
可是, 如果你喜歡的人或你未來有可能結婚的對象堅持要算你們的命盤合不合才來做決定的話, 又該怎樣?
我並不富有, 也至今沒太大成就. 可是滿足的是, 我的家人都健在, 我有關心我的朋友們, 有一份尚穩定的工作和薪水, 沒車沒房沒男友, 但有一個人的自由與瀟灑. 我的人生雖有低潮, 但整體來說還算尚可. 如果只是因為我還沒遇到我的 Mr. Right 而全盤否定我之前的人生, 這 trade-off 還真滿大的.
沒錯, 每個人生下來都有一本無字天書, 也許在冥冥之中指導你人生的方向. 你可以選擇去提早知道, 以便做準備; 也可以"假裝"不知道, 用自己的方法把天書填滿, 到蓋棺時才論定. 我不是不相信算命, 只是很害怕自己不去受到影響. 就像星座一樣, 你可能根本不知道原來這個星座會有這樣的屬性, 但看久了聽久了, 你慢慢相信了, 也在無形之中塑造成這樣的個性.
每個人都會想要聽到好的, 但聽到不好的要怎麼辦? 算命的不準怎麼辦? 雖然說像是命運的健康檢查, 不過這些儀器都沒有經過 ISO 認證, 算的人也沒有證書, 我們像是待宰羔羊, 完全沒有任何掌控權.
可是, 如果你喜歡的人或你未來有可能結婚的對象堅持要算你們的命盤合不合才來做決定的話, 又該怎樣?
我並不富有, 也至今沒太大成就. 可是滿足的是, 我的家人都健在, 我有關心我的朋友們, 有一份尚穩定的工作和薪水, 沒車沒房沒男友, 但有一個人的自由與瀟灑. 我的人生雖有低潮, 但整體來說還算尚可. 如果只是因為我還沒遇到我的 Mr. Right 而全盤否定我之前的人生, 這 trade-off 還真滿大的.
Friday, March 16, 2007
我是笨人
我從沒覺得自己是個聰明人. 之所以還能在這世界上存活的原因, 大概就是知道我不聰明, 所以更要活的久, 活的樂觀, 多學一點...
工作上, 我不聰明, 所以不會拍老闆馬屁, 不會搶功, 不會在該推銷自己的時候爭取升遷的機會. 總是要到最後關頭快做不下去時, 才會跟老闆 complain, 然後再繼續這樣的循環. 我要不是因為加入公司的時間比較久, 否則老早就不知死到哪去了.
感情上, 就更別說了. 倒追是常有的事, 不過從沒成功過. 也不能說完全沒被捧在人手心疼過, 不過上一段感情, 著實證明了我是個弱智, 而且年紀越大還越笨 (我覺得我在10 幾20 幾歲時還比較聰明), 笨笨笨笨笨....都不知道書是念到哪去了, 唯一的事實是, 情場的成敗與否跟學歷是一點關係也沒有, 更有可能是成反比.
那我活著還有什麼意思唄?
有, 讓聰明的人益發覺得他們更聰明, 讓笨的人覺得他們還有人墊背. 好一個存在的意義! Bravo!
不過我還是真的得要學聰明一些, 雖然諺語常說 "天公疼憨人", 以我的長像, 天公可能不會把我列在 "憨" 的名單上, 只能自求多福.
是不是苦幹實幹到時都變白幹, 掏心掏肺最後都是白費?
工作上, 我不聰明, 所以不會拍老闆馬屁, 不會搶功, 不會在該推銷自己的時候爭取升遷的機會. 總是要到最後關頭快做不下去時, 才會跟老闆 complain, 然後再繼續這樣的循環. 我要不是因為加入公司的時間比較久, 否則老早就不知死到哪去了.
感情上, 就更別說了. 倒追是常有的事, 不過從沒成功過. 也不能說完全沒被捧在人手心疼過, 不過上一段感情, 著實證明了我是個弱智, 而且年紀越大還越笨 (我覺得我在10 幾20 幾歲時還比較聰明), 笨笨笨笨笨....都不知道書是念到哪去了, 唯一的事實是, 情場的成敗與否跟學歷是一點關係也沒有, 更有可能是成反比.
那我活著還有什麼意思唄?
有, 讓聰明的人益發覺得他們更聰明, 讓笨的人覺得他們還有人墊背. 好一個存在的意義! Bravo!
不過我還是真的得要學聰明一些, 雖然諺語常說 "天公疼憨人", 以我的長像, 天公可能不會把我列在 "憨" 的名單上, 只能自求多福.
是不是苦幹實幹到時都變白幹, 掏心掏肺最後都是白費?
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Just some thoughts
This week has been busier than the past two weeks. Back to normal, which is good. A too relaxed life is good for leisure, not really for work.
In some ways I do enjoy working, but not to the extent to be called workholic. I don't like this term - I always think it's perfect & ideal to have a balance between your working and personal life, as well as the family life, and I am doing my best to achieve that.
Speaking of family life, I received a phone call from one of our MDs this morning, saying that he wants to spend more time with his family and spend less time at work. He is happy to continue working with the Company, but not taking any directorship roles. I can understand this feeling. 4 years ago when my grandma passed away, I realised that no matter how high you climb on the corporate ladder, the feeling of lossing beloved family can't be replaced, or even compensated by any superficial achievements. Working, after all, it's only one of the ways to showcase the contributions you can make to the world, but not all of them. I guess that might also be the reason why I dare to take a long leave, regardless of the craziness other people might think I have.
Few years ago when I started the position in the Company, I did complain that I have no close friends in the Company because normal staff think I am too close to the management team and might say something which are not meant to be said. Honestly, I won't, and I don't like saying bad things behind other peoples' back. I am who I am. Few years after when I look back, this position does teach me something valuable in life, about people, about what worths to take and to give. Although sometimes I will still wonder why I don't work for other big companies like most of my classmates or friends do, I believe that if one day I have my own business, I shall be able to survive easier thanks to the training I receive - start everything from scratch, and be able to accomplish them.
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
白色情人節不白色...
按耐了兩天, 還是很沒志氣的在昨晚睡前打了一個短信給你. 翻來覆去的難以入眠, 搞不清為什麼自己最近的心情起起伏伏像翹翹板一樣. 半個鐘頭之後, 你打了通電話來, 聲音聽起來不如往常的 cheerful, 好似心中有心事般. 開刀之後的復原狀況沒有你想像的快, 公司裡的事情也讓你煩心, 我沒法幫助太多, 只能傾聽, 也希望你能儘早康復.
今天是我們認識的第四個月, 也正巧是所謂的白色情人節. 一個月之前, 我們什麼都沒表示, 也就無所謂回禮這回事. 現在想想, 慢也有慢的好處. 常賭氣的想就乾脆不打短信給你好了, 免得惹人煩, 自己也像懸在半空中不知下一步該往何去. 不過在經過昨晚發生的事後, 我還是覺得適當的關心是必要的, 直到你完全康復為止. At least that's the least I could do at the stage.
今天是我們認識的第四個月, 也正巧是所謂的白色情人節. 一個月之前, 我們什麼都沒表示, 也就無所謂回禮這回事. 現在想想, 慢也有慢的好處. 常賭氣的想就乾脆不打短信給你好了, 免得惹人煩, 自己也像懸在半空中不知下一步該往何去. 不過在經過昨晚發生的事後, 我還是覺得適當的關心是必要的, 直到你完全康復為止. At least that's the least I could do at the stage.
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
漫步彌敦道
星期一的晚上, 彌敦道異常的安靜, 沒有太多熙壤的人群, 有的是一份屬於早春的寧靜和優逸. 突然想起在法國巴黎時漫步的情景, 不過香港要變成那樣, 大概要等很久很久吧....
心情不好時, 我喜歡一個人"晃"在街上, 泡在書店裡, 或著開著車到處亂跑. 更或許是鬧失蹤 - 索性把 cellphone 關調, 讓自己在世界的一角消失. 覺得自己這樣的行為很像螃蟹 (或是烏龜?), retreat, is for the next recovery.
香港的天氣, 多數的時候都是陰陰的 (cloudy), 不像在紐西蘭, 更多時候看到的是藍天白雲. 以前想哭時, 可以邊開車邊哭, 雖然很可憐, 豈碼哭出來後心情會好點. 現在在香港, 想不讓別人看到你哭, 大概只有在廁所裡吧 (還得要哭的很小聲, 免得嚇到別人). 密閉式的空間, 人也活的密閉.
Monday, March 12, 2007
Wait, or Not Wait
I must admit that I am not a person who like waiting, not waiting the phone, not waiting the relationship, not waiting the future. Not waiting, but creating.
However this kind of personality is good in business, but possibly not be appreciated in the man/woman relationship particularlly towards Asian guy.
I have tried to be patient, but sometimes this kind of waiting is really killing. Why can't we just pick up the call or just say to someone we care about and do want to express how much we care?
Maybe that's how I scared most of the guys and still be single by now :P Because I am too "Leo" - maybe I shall be born as a guy instead of a girl. In that way, I might have achieved more than what I have achieved now.
Can the strategy be learned or need to be tried and tested?
However this kind of personality is good in business, but possibly not be appreciated in the man/woman relationship particularlly towards Asian guy.
I have tried to be patient, but sometimes this kind of waiting is really killing. Why can't we just pick up the call or just say to someone we care about and do want to express how much we care?
Maybe that's how I scared most of the guys and still be single by now :P Because I am too "Leo" - maybe I shall be born as a guy instead of a girl. In that way, I might have achieved more than what I have achieved now.
Can the strategy be learned or need to be tried and tested?
Friday, March 9, 2007
The battle between Hong Kongese girl and Taiwanese girl
It sounds scary to use this title, but in reality it seems it's becoming the fact. The battle between a Hong Kongese girl and a Taiwanese girl, with relatively similiar background besides different native spoken languages, while with the same aim to win the same guy's heart.
I used to be a very confident person, but not this time when confronting my own relationship.
When she saw me last Sun in the hospital, somehow I felt she was not that friendly compared with the first time when I saw her back in Dec 06. Honestly, kinda hostile, but in a subtle way. She is a smart girl, also pretty, and get alone well with his family and friends. Due to the language barrier, I was unusually quiet than before (I know it's not my typical style) and most of the time I could only smile, and be a good listener.
When she was happily talking to his mum, I could only sit besides his bed, to listen to him, give him things he needs, and tell him not to worry about me to feel bored because I can't speak fluent Cantonese.
I don't know what is going on between him and her, and also don't want to guess although having the curiousity to find out more. After all, what means to be will mean to be, and what won’t means won’t. Maybe from the very beginning I am the one who thinks too much and he might just see me as a friend and a good listener.
People's heart are hard to guess, and I am certainly not the master of it.
Thursday, March 8, 2007
玉鐲
過年期間到越南玩, 媽媽無意間在一家玉店看到一個細的玉鐲子, 在眾多阿姨們的聳動之下, 成為了我的新年禮物. 一直以來媽媽總是想要我帶玉鐲, 像所有家中的女生一樣, 每個人都有一個翠綠的手鐲. 不過我一直擔心, 粗魯的我會一不小心把玉鐲敲碎, 或也覺得綠色的玉鐲帶在手上有些"老土", 想盡了各式方法推託. 老媽不是一個會push人的媽, 看我不想帶, 她也不逼 (不過我想她還是沒有放棄要我帶玉鐲的念頭. 現在看來那更像是一個不成文的家族傳統...). 這次給她碰上了size超細, 又不是綠色 (阿姨說是血玉)的手鐲, 價格也不會太貴 (被我打壞了不會太心疼 :P), 還等什麼呢? 就給她買了下來..
接下來, 就是如何遊說我的問題了...
我這次的反抗不大 (大概年齡漸長的關係, 又是大過年, 老人說的話還是不要忤逆), 想說試試看也好, 套在手脕上也還算不差, 就是要小心一點就是了...不可以亂跑亂跳...更不可以帶著去滑雪或是做刺激性的運動...我終於知道為什麼老媽要我帶玉鐲的原因了...除了保身之外, 大概也希望我變斯文一點, 這樣比較容易嫁出去...哈哈哈 :)
不過好像是真的, 我現在做什麼都會小心翼翼, 搭地鐵時也會盡量不用手鐲去碰柱, 沒事還會呆呆著看著她, 看顏色有沒有變漂亮. 有意思的是, 我沒睡飽時, 玉的顏色也濁濁的, 精神好時, 她的顏色也會變亮. 不曉得有沒有可以讓男生帶的玉鐲? 可能要 stainless 加上玉吧...
接下來, 就是如何遊說我的問題了...
我這次的反抗不大 (大概年齡漸長的關係, 又是大過年, 老人說的話還是不要忤逆), 想說試試看也好, 套在手脕上也還算不差, 就是要小心一點就是了...不可以亂跑亂跳...更不可以帶著去滑雪或是做刺激性的運動...我終於知道為什麼老媽要我帶玉鐲的原因了...除了保身之外, 大概也希望我變斯文一點, 這樣比較容易嫁出去...哈哈哈 :)
不過好像是真的, 我現在做什麼都會小心翼翼, 搭地鐵時也會盡量不用手鐲去碰柱, 沒事還會呆呆著看著她, 看顏色有沒有變漂亮. 有意思的是, 我沒睡飽時, 玉的顏色也濁濁的, 精神好時, 她的顏色也會變亮. 不曉得有沒有可以讓男生帶的玉鐲? 可能要 stainless 加上玉吧...
Wednesday, March 7, 2007
你
曾經有朋友問我, 為什麼喜歡你?
多數對你的了解, 是來自電話, 及僅僅幾次的 catch up...不能說對你了解很深, 畢竟我們從認識至今, 只有3個多月的時間, 而真正開始有聯繫, 卻是在你住院後, 我去Toronto出差的那段期間.
因為不想放棄一段也許有開始的情感, 在11月底我在Sydney出差, 老闆逼問下, 向公司提出了"我只可以去Toronto 一個月"的要求. 老闆很為難 (因為原本我應該是要外調3 個月幫新的分公司set up), 我也不知道這個決定是否正確 (再度為了一個不確定的未來, 放棄一個已知的現在). 不過我知道, 不去, 也許事情會有轉機, 去了, 是一點機會都沒有了...
現在看來, 這個堅持還是對的.
第一次見你時, 意外的覺得你沒有實際年齡的事故, 甚至覺得小3歲的我比你更顯老成. 不過慢慢發現, 你有一顆很善良, 很單純的心, 在很多事情上你有你自己的想法, 你很樂觀, 也沒有架子, 跟你聊天很輕鬆, 也很開心. 漸漸的, 我從過去的負面影響中走了出來, 我的笑容回來了. 朋友們看的出我的改變, 也都樂觀其成, 希望我早日找到我的 Mr. Right.
原來, 碰到一個對的人是這麼的重要.
不過, 我不知道我是否是你會碰到的對的人. 很多的外在因素, 也不是我能掌控的. I am just hoping, you can get well very soon, to be able to do what you want to do, to be with someone you want to be with, to enjoy the life you mean to enjoy.
多數對你的了解, 是來自電話, 及僅僅幾次的 catch up...不能說對你了解很深, 畢竟我們從認識至今, 只有3個多月的時間, 而真正開始有聯繫, 卻是在你住院後, 我去Toronto出差的那段期間.
因為不想放棄一段也許有開始的情感, 在11月底我在Sydney出差, 老闆逼問下, 向公司提出了"我只可以去Toronto 一個月"的要求. 老闆很為難 (因為原本我應該是要外調3 個月幫新的分公司set up), 我也不知道這個決定是否正確 (再度為了一個不確定的未來, 放棄一個已知的現在). 不過我知道, 不去, 也許事情會有轉機, 去了, 是一點機會都沒有了...
現在看來, 這個堅持還是對的.
第一次見你時, 意外的覺得你沒有實際年齡的事故, 甚至覺得小3歲的我比你更顯老成. 不過慢慢發現, 你有一顆很善良, 很單純的心, 在很多事情上你有你自己的想法, 你很樂觀, 也沒有架子, 跟你聊天很輕鬆, 也很開心. 漸漸的, 我從過去的負面影響中走了出來, 我的笑容回來了. 朋友們看的出我的改變, 也都樂觀其成, 希望我早日找到我的 Mr. Right.
原來, 碰到一個對的人是這麼的重要.
不過, 我不知道我是否是你會碰到的對的人. 很多的外在因素, 也不是我能掌控的. I am just hoping, you can get well very soon, to be able to do what you want to do, to be with someone you want to be with, to enjoy the life you mean to enjoy.
Tuesday, March 6, 2007
遊牧民族
遊牧民族....這是你給我的新 nickname, 也是我過去兩個月的生活寫照, 或是更貼切的....過去這麼多年的生活模式....從12歲開始近10年的住校生活, 到出國唸書,工作, 生活, 你曾問我家在哪裡, 我想, 哪裡都是家, 哪裡也都不是家...並不是喜歡老是一只皮箱拎著走的日子, 不能說是出於無奈, 只能說這是一種適應生活的方式...
25歲時到新加坡當實習生, 當提著筆記型電腦坐上飛機回台灣做 interview 時, 不津捫心自問, 怎麼我想做 international business 的夢想這麼快就達到了...不過, 當上天幫你開啟了一扇新的門, 也許有另一扇門就將被關起. 很多時候, 外人羨慕的外派生活, 是一連串的 eating alone, shopping alone, wondering alone, relationship alone, everything + "alone"...
I've always told myself, this is a training to train myself to be stronger, this is the pre-requirement to do the international business, this is how you want to be the successful business woman, this is....
Until last year, I suddenly realised that I just want to be an ordinary girl, to pursue what other people at my age are pursuing, to enjoy the traveling just like most of the young people will do, to do the OE. My boss thought I was crazy, Japanese friends thought that I was doing the opposite with what other people are doing, other friends thought I might suffer from the bad relationship. Anyhow, if you ask me why I made the decision at that time, I could just answer that's a mixed decision, but was the best decision according to the circumstances at that time. If you ever ask me whether I will regret, I won't, and I think (still believe) that was the best decision I have ever made for my life, for myself.
I ended up having a four month non-paid leave from work, left the place where I had been living for eight years, and traveled in Europe for two months and 10 days, my dream continent. The only thing I regret is that I didn't try further to find the job there to start my real "OE" because of the promise I made to my boss, and also because at that time I was just too tired of the hostel life and endless suitcase carrying.
Initially I was expecting to have some dramatic life changes, but it turned out nothing dramatic happened during the journey, only a loads of beautiful memories and photos. And a more positive and easy going life attitude.
曾笑稱自己像南太平洋的浮萍, 不過浮萍現在漂回亞洲來了, 在離家不遠的香港島上....